When Jaida Met Kadeem

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When Jaida Met Kadeem - Part Eight.

Chapter Fourteen;

It's now Saturday and I'm going to Olivia's house then going to this Shoobz with Bri, she was making such a big fuss about it yesterday. We went shopping and everything, I ended up buying a black dress which I'm going to wear with gold accessories, tights because it's cold and heels or flats...hadn't quite decided yet. But I have time. It was only eleven and I was ready to go, not wearing anything special, a top over that a long cardigan, jeggings and boots, left my hair out and tied a long scarf on my head like a head-band, big hoops and that's me. Auntie Donna and Keisha were going to join me later that day but they were off shopping first. I was walking up my road, then I had to turn to a road that led to Kadeem's road and Rex's road to get to the bus stop, I was walking with my headphones in my ears in another world, when I must've turned to my right and saw Kadeem walking up his road. I quickly turned away not without noticing how nice he looked and how his lips was making movements, he could've been calling my name; I don't know I had my headphones in. I noticed my walking picked up pace I hadn't spoken to him in two days, people had clocked but thought nothing of it, me and Kadeem were always 'Not talking'. Remember how I told you how we used to argue a lot after I told him about my feelings for him? Then we would make up again? Yeah. But no-one knew the reasons why we argued obviously, just thought it was over childish things and we would make up soon like before...they were wrong this time. J.Holiday - Suffocate filled my ears, it's all I listen to now...slow jams, yeah they depress me more but I can't help it. Tears welled up in my eyes as the chorus started: I can't breathe when you talk to me...♪ I sniffed and wiped my eyes furiously as I continued to walk. I felt someone touch my shoulder, I jumped I turned around. I saw Kadeem staring at me with a slightly surprised expression like he didn't think he would scare me. I paused the song, and looked up at him. "Jaida," he said. "I just wanted to apologise for the way what I said came out..." he looked me right in the eye, his eyes are beautiful I gazed back into them in some sort of trance. "You weren't just a f*ck to me, believe me...it was special, you're special-" 

"I don't want to hear it," I interrupted rudely; I was scared I would fall back into his trap. I wasn't even mad at him anymore, I forgave him a long time ago I couldn't help but forgive him, but I didn't want him to know that. I cut my eye at him and turned around to walk away, he grabbed hold of my arm quickly. "Jaida, please just here me out." 

I turned my head, "I don't want to, I've had enough of you, of feeling like this." I snatched my hand away from his grasp. "I cried so much when I got home that day. You made me feel like sh*t," after I said that I was mad at him again, he looked kind of guilty. "Why...?" I began to ask, my voice was soft and full of hurt, there was a pained expression on my face, I know because I felt as my face scrunched up and I know exactly how the face looks like when I do it. I looked him in the eyes and he stared back and I couldn't explain the look...I really can't because I feel like I see him in a different light, like I don't know him as well as I thought I did. He didn't reply so I screwed him once more before walking off, this time he didn't call my name, run after me...nothing.

I spent the day at Olivia's flat; I was feeling so comfortable around her that I told her about the whole Kadeem situation. 

"F*ck him," was what she had to say about him. "He ain't worth your time," I nodded my head and decided I was going to 'F*ck him'. I held Travon and I asked her a bit more Tyrese and looked at more pictures of him and she told me stories about him. At around half five, Auntie Donna and Keisha arrived. My Auntie had brought some stuff for Olivia and Travon, food for the flat and some little baby clothes, they were so cute, half an hour later I left the flat because Bri called me telling me to get to my yard and start getting changed because she knows how long I take. It was only six what was the rush? She just started cussing me, swearing loudly in Portuguese or Spanish, I had no idea what language she was speaking boy but it was jokes, I left Olivia's yard just to shut her up. When I got to my door I saw Bri and Janet waiting outside, laughing and cracking joke holding bags and looking wrapped up warm in their thick coats.