Septiplier~ Secret

43~ Moment to self

Jack's PoV
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Hands lay on my chest. Focusing on my steady breathing. Heart beating slowly. Eyes blinking like clock work.

Blink

Blink

Blink

My eyes focused on the ceiling that stay above me. Static fills the room from the distant TV. The deafening sounds of silence are the only thing that I seem to hear other than the sound of my blood pulsing through my veins. The heart is a funny thing. Sending streams of blood through your body every second, giving you power to live. That's funny too, life. It never turns out how you want it, does it?

I guess maybe Felix was right about one thing, sometimes ending it all is easier than forcing yourself to live through it. But some say it's selfish. In reality though, what's more selfish, ending ones life, or forcing someone to stay in a world where they'd rather die than live another second?

I think too much, I roll over on my side to look out the window at the dim street lights illuminating the empty road. The night is lonely like me. No stars in the sky, the moon only slightly visible due to the clouds that cover its beauty. The moon is lonely too. It has no one to be around. I guess the moon teaches me something though, it can't glow on its own, but with the help of the sun it can be the brightest thing in the sky.

The moon is a beautiful thing. Too bad people over look it every day as just the substitute for the much brighter daytime sun. The world we live in is so beautiful, but the people around us destroyed it. For what? To build huge homes that take away nature habitats? To create malls that attract gas-burning cars full of people to spend hundreds of dollars when that money could be used to create eco-friendly cars.

My thoughts continue to dart from one thing to another, never staying on one topic for too long; that is, until the thought of Mark entered my mind. I really messed up, I shouldn't of walked out. I miss him so, so much. I know that I don't deserve him, but I want him to be the one that lays next to me watching corny movies, cuddling under the stars as we laugh the night to dawn, then dawn to dusk. I want him here, and I want his kisses that are so sweet. I want his glances where his eyes sparkle. I want him.

Marks PoV
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"Mark? You doing okay?" Amy asks walking into the quiet room.

"I'm fine. Thanks. But I'd kind of like to be alone right now." I reply harshly.

"Mark, look," she sighs walking over to me, "I know that you miss Jack, but you have to talk to him. He's not just going to come running back everytime you push him away."

"I didn't mean to!!" I let a tear fall as my voice cracks, "I didn't mean to push him away, it's been a week since I've seen him, we had one argument and he hasn't talked to me since."

Flashback
"Maybe you should stop being so stupid, Jack! Maybe you should finally grow up!" I scream letting my anger get the best of me.

"All I did was try to be there for you Mark. That's all I wanted to do. Then you get mad at me for spending a day with Felix. Nothing happened, okay?!" He says before turning to leave.

"I hate you." I softly say.

He pauses at the door and turns his head to the side, "That makes two of us, because I'm done."

I watch Jack leave before I break down with tears rolling down my face. I lost the one guy I love.

Current time

"I gotta go, Mark. Just came to see if you were still alive and such. I'll come back tomorrow noon to check up on you. I'll bring you some lunch too. Love ya bud." Amy softly smiles before leaving the room and shutting the door.

The sound of the fan spinning echos in my head as the thoughts of Jack dance around. I miss him so much, I haven't seen him in so long. I wish I could be with him, I wish I could hold him. I wish I could tell him everything is alright. I wish I could kiss him once more, I wish I could cuddle with him as a scary movie plays. I want to marry him. I want Jack back. I love him.

(A/N)
Oof okay, I was kinda productive. Hope this is okay, it took a little bit. I'm sorry I haven't been posting, I've just been dying with school. I'll try harder though, I love y'all.

As always, Buh-Bye.