❤JonahXCyrus❤

Nightmares to Depression

Cyrus P.o.v

The man forced himself into me and thrusted in and out. I screamed and cried but no one helped me. "Stop screaming!" He grunted. "Or I'll hurt you more! " I still continued to cry. He stopped and started slapping me really hard. I cried harder. "Please l-let me g-go!  LET ME G-GO" I screamed.

-end of nightmare-

I shot straight up out of my nightmare.  I was sweating and crying. Why won't it go away? I felt more tears fall. I can't take it anymore I w-want... To die. I got up carefully trying not to wake Jonah. Halfway to my bathroom I turned and walked back to jonah.

"I'm sorry, " I whispered even though he was asleep. "I can't do this anymore... It's been weeks and I still can't forget." I brushed his bangs out of his face so I could kiss him one last time. I softly kissed his lips and a tear ran down my face onto his. "I'll miss you" I whispered my last words to him.

I grabbed a pencil and paper,  then walked to the bathroom and shut the door.

"Dear Jonah,

I'm really sorry I have to do this to you, but I can't take this anymore. I've been having nightmares every night and can't sleep. I feel like if I do this you won't have to worry about me anymore. I love you so much and I'm doing this for your own good... I feel horrible because I've been scaring you and causing you to be constantly worried. Please don't hate me for this just know ill be watching over you. ❤ don't be afraid to move on, I'd hate to see you grieving over me forever. I'm sorry. I'll always be with you... Goodbye

-your love Cyrus

The paper had my tear droplets trailed across it. I placed the note on the bathroom counter and pulled out Melatonin. Goodnight world... Bye Jonah. I dumped some pills  into my hand and started taking them two at a time.
I ended up taking 18.

I didn't want to go back and lay with Jonah because he would wake up next to me, and I'd be...  dead... A few more tears fell and I pulled out my razor.
Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut
For doing this to Jonah.
Cut
cut
Cut
Cut
Cut

I deserve more than this amount of cuts for hurting jonah, but I can't cut when im dead. I start to feel sort of dizzy and really tired so I lay down in the bathtub. It's dry so I don't get my clothes wet. I didn't want to close my eyes but there is no turning back now. Bye Jonah...

I closed my eyes and almost immediately everything went black.

(Morning)
Jonah P. O. V

I woke up and I could no longer feel Cyrus' warmth around my waist. Where is he? I had to use the bathroom so i walked to the door and slowly opened it in case Cyrus was in there. I opened it and gasped. Cyrus was laying in the bathtub. His body was pale and I couldn't see him breathing.

"No no no no no Cyrus!!! " I screamed and ran to his side. I pulled out my phone and called 911. "911 what's you emergency?" The woman on the other end said calmly. "My boyfriend isn't breathing!!!  Please send an ambulance now!!" I screamed into the phone.

(At the hospital)

I sat in the waiting room twiddling my thumbs in worry. Until the doctor walked in with a sad expression on his face. "I'm sorry" Tears welled up in my eyes.  No!