The Homewrecker (BWWM)

Chapter 12- The revenge kiss

I'm pregnant.

I'm pregnant.

I'm pregnant.

I had to keep repeating that in my head so it would process in my mind. I'm actually pregnant. I had no plans to have a kid..and after Noah was born I made it my mission to always be careful to not have another one.

I mean I love my son. But the way my life is, I don't think it's healthy to bring a child around it. Especially considering that the child's father is Ethan's. the mention of his name made me just want to cry.

Noah and I ran for our lives away from him and what does he do? Goes to a hotel to screw his mistress.

And now I'm pregnant with his second child. The only thing that I did was just burst out crying in the the stall. I didn't care who heard but I was wailing and wailing until it hurt. This can't be happening to me right now..not today. I couldn't help but just start blaming myself. I let him have sex with me, I let him treat me the way he was treating me, I let him put his hands on me. It's all my fault. Mine mine mine.

The only thought that was on my mind was

Abortion

But no, I couldn't. I remember first finding out that I was pregnant with Noah. I wanted to terminate the pregnancy..but I changed my mind and I don't know where I'd be without him. So no. Abortion is not an option.

I mean this isn't so bad. I can't take care of this baby all on my own. I didn't need Ethan. He doesn't even have to know. No one has to know. I mean no one ever guessed I was pregnant with Noah. My body never showed it.

The more that I thought about it, the more it made me feel a little better.

But the sound of Shawn's voice just broke that spell. He was knocking on the girls bathroom door calling my name. I don't even know how he knew I was in there.

He already answered that question without me asking.

"I know you're in there...I asked around already" he said still knocking

I couldn't face him. I mean how was I suppose to face him? It would just make me cry right in front of him and I refuse to cry in front of anyone. Especially Shawn.

So I sat quiet, waiting for him to leave. I just prayed to god he didn't leave Noah in the car alone.

I heard the bathroom door open and I honestly couldn't believe my ears. I heard his hard stomps marching right over to my stall. He stood there tapping his foot impatiently "you coming out?"

I zipped my lips hoping that someone would come in and kick him out. I needed a minute and the last thing I wanted to hear was his sympathy. I was tired of people feeling bad for me. "Hazel..." he started.

I placed the pregnancy test inside my bra and just sat there waiting for what he was going to do next.

I almost pissed my pants when he dropped to his knees to attempt to poke his head inside my stall. I jumped down the toilet and opened the door barely missing his head as he flinched so fast. He stood up straight and gave me a look of anger. "Are you crazy?! You could have killed-

His sentence came to brief half as he stopped talking. He suddenly grabbed my shoulders and gave me a confused look "what's wrong?"