Hamilton OneShots

Do You Have A Minute? ~ Lams & Jamilton

Alexander Hamilton's POV

I walked across an empty land...

It had been a year and I still wasn't over it, I wasn't over him... This pathway was familiar, I had walked it so my times before with him. We would laugh and hold hands, make jokes and flirt, he loved me and I loved him. Until that love was taken away...

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand...

There are things you take for granted, the clothes on your back, the home that you have, the people around you, I learned to not take things for granted at a young age... But I was so blinded by his love that the minute I took him for granted, he was taken away. I'll never see his sparkling hazel eyes that light up when a turtle walked across the pathway, his long, dark brown hair that was so curly and poofy that it looked like a cloud. If clouds were brown... He always tied his hair back, finding it too hard to manage if he didn't. I missed his lightly tanned skin covered in freckles, who needed the starry night sky when John was standing in front of you. His personality and soul was so light, so light it was like a star that brightened your world and warmed you up, his voice, soft and feathery, fragile but strong, it was complex, his accent made his voice have personality, yet his softness made him seem tender. He wasn't just my star, he was my galaxy, always adorned in bright colours, fluorescent, soft colours that danced around as if there was life to them, his skin reminded me of the many stars and planets that were all different and unique... And at the centre of all that was his soul, the brightest light of them all. So pure and special, something he let only me get close enough to touch. He opened his bright, radiant soul to my dark, shadowed and broken one. One touch from him and his light blew away the darkness even if only for a moment... Yes, John was my galaxy... But now I was stuck on Earth once again, feeling nothing but pain, having lost the light to balance my dark...

I felt the Earth beneath my feet...

The world did look beautiful, the light blue sky being a calming colour, I felt the heat of the sun on my skin, but it wasn't the same... That star wasn't mine and only mine... My star was dead, slowly taking me with it.

I walked more, mindlessly moving my feet that knew this walk well. I stopped by a river, smiling as I walked over and sat by it. He died by a river, lost his life while the water still flowed smoothly. The water was animated and lifelike, despite being nothing but a liquid. It flowed smoother than the blood that poured from his gunshot. I wasn't there to see it, but I remember it being described by John's comrade... Just imagining it was enough to make me cry. Then I saw it, it made me smile briefly, made me feel like everything was okay. The dark green shell moved slowly from the water over to me, a turtle. Almost like a sign that John was still here in spirit. It calmed me. I slid my hand underneath the shell, the way John had taught me, and held the small creature close to my chest. Indeed this creature reminded me of John, gentle and loving, well... As loving as a turtle could be.

Sat by the river and it made me complete...

Our relationship was special, a bond that we had formed. It's so amazing when someone comes to your life and you expect nothing out of it... But suddenly, there right in front of you, is everything you ever need. You can't explain it either, you can't explain why that bond formed, you just know it did. Love is one of the most simple, yet complex things in the world. Once you have it, you hold it dearly to you. You wish not to let it go and you pray that nothing will take it away. Now I only pray for it to be returned... I pray to have my angel from heaven brought back to me, I took him for granted and he's gone. Lord have mercy, don't make me suffer... Please I beg of you, bring my angel back... I'm praying, please... I'm praying; that never used to happen before...