Hamilton OneShots

I Love You ~ Laurette (Trigger Warning)

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"I do"

Those words were forever engraved in my head. My whole world shattered when those words came out of the mouth of Alexander Hamilton. I couldn't cry, I was standing next to him as his best man... So I stood there looking happy as he kissed Elizabeth Schuyler. Later that night at their part, I didn't stay long. I had a few drinks, then walked over to Alexander.

"Alex, I'm going home," I told him.

"So early? John is something wrong?" He asked.

"No, I'm just tired."

"C'mon love, let's dance!" Elizabeth shouted as she grabbed his hand.

"Okay, bye John."

I nodded and walked away. The tears were already falling as I got into my car, I just sat there as they fell onto my lap. Why? Why her? I thought Alex loved me... He told me in a letter... "I wish my dear Laurens, It might be in my power by actions rather than words to convince you

that I love you...

I started my car and drove off slowly. Once I got home, I was full on sobbing. I love Alexander, how could he do this to me? I couldn't believe that he chose Eliza over me. He had only known her for two months, and he knew me since grade 11. I walked inside and just sat on the couch. John you idiot, he never loved you... He wouldn't have married her if he loved you. I couldn't get the voice out of my head. I started to believe what it was saying.

Just die John, he wouldn't care.

The voice was right. Alexander was happy now, he wouldn't care if I just slipped away. He's already moved out of our shared house, so what do I have to lose? I walked over to the bathroom and searched. Razor? Too painful. Gun? Too noisy and I didn't have one. Noose? I don't have a rope. Wait...

I saw it out of the corner of my eye. Alexander's anxiety meds. He must've left them here, there was still 3/4 of the bottle left. I grabbed them and went to my room. Once I grabbed a pen and paper, I wrote a simple note.

Please forgive me one day... I have nothing left anyway. I still love you Alexander -John

Tears fell down harder, I have nothing left... I opened the bottle and grabbed the water by my bed.

"I'm sorry," I said to the empty room.

I brought the pills to my mouth and swallowed them with water. The realization was slow...

Wait.

This is gonna kill me.

Oh.

But my friends?

Won't they miss me?

Hercules...

Peggy...

James...

Laf.

LAF!

Laf didn't go to the party... He wasn't feeling well. No, I don't want to die.

I started shaking and grabbed my phone, texting Laf quickly, as my eyes started to droop.

John: Laf... Help me, please...

Lafayette: John? What's wrong?

John: I made a mistake, please come to my house.

Third Person

Lafayette threw on a jacket and his shoes, and he sprinted down the street to John's house. What was John doing? He said he made a mistake... but what?

Lafayette got to John's house and threw open the door.

"John? JOHN!?! WHERE ARE YOU??" He asked in a panicked state.

"L-Laf?" John's weak voice was heard from his room. Lafayette ran over to him and saw him on the ground convulsing with an empty bottle in his hands.

"Oh John... what did you do?" Laf called 911 immediately and got down next to John, pulling him into his arms.

John started drifting in and out of consciousness as Laf held him tight, praying for the ambulance to come quick. Tears of his own pricked Laf's eyes.

John looked up at Lafayette before passing out in his arms.

~Time Skip~

John awoke in the hospital. Lafayette had texted his friends and told them to meet him at the hospital the day after. They all sat together in the waiting room. Alexander and Elizabeth walked in.

"Hey, sorry we're late." Alexander shares a short kiss with Elizabeth.

Is that why? Because Alexander got married?

A doctor came out of the room.

"Okay, he can have visitors, but he wants to see uhhh Lafayette? First."

Lafayette got up and went into the room. He saw John laying in the bed.

"Hey Laf."

"John, why? Please tell me why you did this to yourself."

"Because of Alexander..."

"John, what did Alexander do?" Lafayette asked

"He chose Elizabeth over me. He married her. I wanted Alexander, and he said he loved me. It just broke my heart when I saw how happy they were."

Lafayette moved closer and sat on the bed next to John. He moved his hand to John's hair and stroked it softly.

"Shhh, John. I understand."

They sat there, no words were shared. Words weren't needed. Lafayette understood right away. He saw how John would look at Alexander. That look changed when Alexander proposed.

A few minutes of silence passed, and John spoke.

"Laffy, I am really tired. Can we cuddle?"

Lafayette was taken aback by this, but couldn't say no to John. He nodded and slid under the covers with John. John turned to face Lafayette. They lay like that for a moment, before John leaned in and closed the gap between them. Lafayette was surprised but kissed back.

John pulled back, blushing.

"I love you Laffy. I've wanted to do that for a while."

"I love you too Jacky."