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🥀 C H A P T E R 8 🥀

Suicide Doesn't Kill People; Sadness Kills People.

Nova Williams P O V
Swear that I can still feel you here
I just can't believe you're not here
I've been needing you
All I dream in you
Don't think I can make it
I don't think I can make it
But then I hear you say that
I bet not do nothing crazy
Cause Nami really needs you
And I would never leave you

Cause I am in the stars
And everywhere you are
In every single little moment and
Every single bit of sunshine just
Know that I am right by your side
Know that you are right by my side
So I'm gonna make you so proud
You don't ever have to worry bout me

Jhené Aikos smooth voice feels my ears as I make my way to school, I've never been so drained and tired in my life. Last night was ruff, I mean really ruff.

My depression wouldn't let me sleep, every second it was pounding voices in my head telling me my parents were gone; my situation wasn't gonna get better.

I was truly crazy without that medicine; now I know that I'm not fine in the head, I'm not okay. I'm the complete opposite- I'm not like everyone else and I hate it.

Last night I just gave up, all I hade was myself. I found bench to sleep and and made it work; but I didn't get any sleep. My mind was racing and I simply couldn't find my peace to go to sleep. Then earlier this morning when I knew my cousins had left for school, and my uncle and aunt had left for work, I went back to take a shower and get myself together.

Now I'm here, making my way to school. I was going to end up being five or ten minutes late, but I was fine with it.

••••
"Well look who finally decided to show up." Mr. Shaw speaks making all the attention go to me.

I didn't feel like talking, I barely felt like moving. I sluggishly walk across the class and hand him my tardy pass, I then walk over to my assigned seat. I raise an eyebrow seeing Dejha not sitting here, I look around the room seeing if she were here today.

I spot her orange wig sitting in a desk beside Ol dude, which was surrounded by Quincy, India, Taye, Trey, Justin, and Christian.

All the people I despise.

She noticed me looking before a slight blush runs over her face and she mouths the word:

Sorry

I quickly turn away and take a seat at my desk trying not to feel some type of way about that.

She didn't know you were coming Nova.

You're not her only friend; get that through your head dumbass.

I sit down in my seat and set my stuff down in the chair beside me, then begin paying attention to the lesson.

My mind somehow drifted off to yesterday, I totally make a complete fool of myself in front on Ol dude. He already thinks I'm weird, not he probably thinks I'm crazy too. I'm dreading going to his house today.

All I need is a good joint and a nice nap. That's all I'm asking for.

"Aye girl." Dejha smiling, following me out the classroom.