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🥀 C H A P T E R 20 🥀

Before I start the chapter I'd just like to say that my love, support, and prayers go out to all the families dealing with the tragedy that happened in Florida. None of those innocent students deserved what they had to experience. My prayers also go out to the young man that caused all of this, hope he gets some serious help. 🙏🏽💕 Rip Angels 👼🏽

Everything I've Loved, Became Everything I Lost.

Nova Williams P O V
No sun shining through the window. Not a single light on. No sound filling my ears.

Just me laying in my bed, wrapped in a blanket, with nothing but the sound of my thoughts and the sight of blackness. I looked down at the thin white fuzzy blanket seeing stains of blood from my wrist slowly bleeding through.

I don't know what was wrong with me....it just happened. One minute I was laying in bed thinking to myself, the next minute I was having a verbal fight with the voice in my head.

It's that voice that controls my actions, when I get like this it's the voice telling me to continue. It's the voice that tells me I don't need my medicine; it's the voice that reminds me everyday that I'm not fine.

A knock on my door causes me to roll over onto my stomach, whoever it was would flip if they saw the blood. Especially my aunt, she'd take all my razors.

"Come in."

"Do you realize school starts in ten minutes? Get your ass up and get ready!" my aunt yells. "And your pills are sitting right here, take them before you go." She says. I wait till I hear the door slam until I get comfortable again.

Why the hell was she even here? Wasn't she supposed to be at work?

My mental health wasn't gonna work with me today, my body could honestly not function. I felt fucking crazy, and I had no idea why; I needed to relieve this built up energy inside me and I couldn't. I was going insane on the inside.

I tangle my hands into my hair and give it a tight grip, trying to release whatever I was feeling. I wanted to scream my head off.

You've already cut....What now?

"Leave me the fuck alone." I growl looking up at the ceiling as if that was where the voice was coming from.

Who said you had to stop at your wrist?

I grab my pillow and cover my face, getting blood on the light blue fabric in the process. It was taking everything in me not to have a physical and mental break down right now.

"I'm not gonna tell your ass again Nova! Get the hell up!" My aunt yells. It was another minute or so before the door slammed and I heard her get in the car and speed off.

I let out an ear piercing scream, which I'm sure the neighbors could hear, and rose up from my bed. I needed those pills ASAP.

No the hell you don't....you're perfectly fine without them.

"Shut up!" I yell hitting my head. The voice just wouldn't leave me alone.

If the pills really helped you wouldn't be the crazy bitch you are now.

"I am not crazy!" I yell, walking in front of the mirror seeing my hair a wild mess, and my clothes covered in blood.