Self Expression of A Burden

January 21st, 2018

I wake up. Overall refreshed. It's my last day of driving school. I have my final. Did I study? Nah. Do I ever study? Lmao no. Do I usually do fine winging it? Yeah. I always get mad at myself for not studying anyway, and everyone's always on my ass to study. I just remember things really well long term and when I try studying I can't focus and it's a waste of time. But yeah anyway so I wake up late and throw on random clothes and rush out the door. I look over my study guide once. I get there. Stoner friend Tyler's in my seat and Alia's in his. Alia is my dad's girlfriend Tellia's granddaughter. We hated each other since we met. Were both freshman, I'm older though. She is such a spoiled. catty, and fake bitch. She always has an attitude and just tries too hard. She acts as if we're in competition or something. Literally the first few weeks of classes she wore expensive brands and did her makeup or whatever. So I did the same lmao. Eventually I just stopped because fuck her honestly. She stopped a little after I did. We are literal opposites. She likes pop, I like alternative. She wears leggings I wear skinny jeans. She's an athlete I'm a writer. She's a prissy whiny bitch. I'm "one of the guys." Anyway, Nick sat in his regular seat and I just sat in Tyler's, even though it was next to Alia I wanted to hang with Tyler one last time before never seeing him again. I got a better score than her. :) Nick failed, Tyler was high and got a 94, I got an 82, Alia got 70 something I think. I felt kinda sad class was over, Nick and Tyler were entertaining. I finally can have sleepovers on Saturday, do more with my dad, and even sleep in now though. We picked up Blue and went to the batting cage. I almost did softball last year, but the team didn't get enough girls. I love love love watching baseball, so I already knew the rules or whatever. I also used the batting cage as a coping mechanism last year, take all my anger out. I'm pretty accurate; missing only one of 10 I think. Showing Blue how to hold the bat was my favorite part though. He's so so cute. He'd be a cute baseball player, but again I just miss being a baseball girlfriend going to games all the time. My ex was a really good player, I went to almost every game and always painted my nails his team color. After that we went to Culver's for dinner. I got shrimp. I've been eating hella shrimp lately actually wtf?? Lmao. I tried tartar sauce the first time, it doesn't taste like much to me. Kind of acidic/vinegary and maybe ranchy? I had a laughing fit thinking about the shrimp dying so I could eat them. I find the weirdest shit funny idk. Brutal. After that we went to Walmart. I didn't have to look at the toy section alone. I love my Blue. <333  I got more coconut water??? Again, it tastes like dirt but I just can't help but crave the fuck out of it? I got this one with pineapple added though. I've been wanting to travel somewhere tropical lately. Maybe it's because of watching Moana so much? My new Nanea American Girl Doll? My longing to learn more about and visit Rio and Hawaii? Idk. I don't remember what I did when I got  home but I think I went to bed at a decent time?