Sparks Fly

chapter 29 - stressed

Louis P.O.V

I sighed and put my face on my desk. I've been here since 6 this morning and it's already 8 in the afternoon. I decided to stay late because were at the point where were arranging sponsors and planning the event. Zayn and the team ended up finding a really good event. Were going to bid off dates with some of England's most eligible bachelors and bachelorettes. I got my mate Liam to be in it since he isn't seeing anyone. I finished typing up the email to the owner of the building we needed and I started putting my papers into my folder for my briefcase. It's already the end of March and our goal/deadline to finish is June. I drove home carefully since I was so tired, Beau was sleeping over at Audrey's since its Friday night. I walked inside and set everything out on the counter. I took out some of the papers for things that needed to be chosen for the event and I started circling things and sighed before laying my head on the counter, I'm so tired. Zayn and I have been so busy trying to work on this since this is a different type of event for us.

I heard a knock and I groaned running a hand through my hair before getting up and going to the door "hell-" I cut myself off and scoffed "leave." "Louis please just give me five minutes". I clenched my jaw and stepped out onto the porch "what" "can we talk inside" I looked at her "no. I only welcome friends and family inside my home now talk or I will call the police to make you." she sighed and sat down and I rolled my eyes sitting far away from her. "Look. I get why you don't want me to meet Beau... but I just want to meet her once. Just once. and then I will leave... I flew back to the states and tried to force myself to forget about it but I can't. Louis I regret the way I was so much." I turned so I was leaned against the frame of my porch looking at her "I was young and scared.. I had just had a baby and I hadn't even finished my first year yet... I ran to America and started a whole new life and in the back of my mind I always wondered about you two... then I kept seeing articles about you, her and Harry and I wanted to meet her at least once. I just want to know what her voice sounds like and see her in person... I may not be her mother but I did give birth to her... please". I clenched my jaw and closed my eyes taking a deep breathe "why couldn't you just stay away Jasmine. do you know what drama this causes for me as Beau's father and for Beau. I'm just lucky she is who she is because she understands not everyone has a mom but one day when she's older and asks to know about who gave birth to her and I have to tell her she already met you but didn't know? and shes only 10 I do not want to have to explain who you are to her. so no." I stood up "you can't meet her" she stood up "but Louis-" "no. but nothing. I don't owe you anything and I on't even feel bad for you. I was the same age as you Jasmine. I was the same age when Beau was born but guess what? It comes down to character. You don't think I was fucking terrified? I was making the commitment of a lifetime and I worked 3 jobs and went to school and still was there for my baby. I would go days without sleep and I was still scared I wasn't doing this right. But she turned out to be an incredible young woman and you know what. I get to be selfish and say I raised her. I did that. My family and I have raised this amazing young woman and you decided a long time ago she wasn't worth a glance. You refused to fucking look at her... You wouldn't even look at her. All I asked was for you to look at her ONCE and instead you turned your back on me and kicked us out. so No you can't meet my daughter. I won't make her go through something so confusing just so you can do something you missed out on 10 years ago. Why is that fair huh? if you can tell me how confusing her and having to try and explain why she never knew you and why you're suddenly here again...if you can tell me how that's fair then you can meet her" she bit her lip which was trembling and looked down "I can't" I looked away "I know you can't. because this isn't something I'm going to put her though just so you can ease your guilty conscious. she doesn't deserve that" I opened the door and looked at her "never come back.. do you hear me. I mean it this was it. I heard you out twice" I said holding up two fingers "and that's it. goodbye." she wiped her cheek and looked down. I shut the door and looked out the peep hole to see her look at the door before wiping her eyes and turning and running to her car. I slid down my door and put my face in my hands. I did feel bad. Of course I did. but I won't give in and let her mess up Beau and everything just so she can feel better. she knew the decision she made 10 years ago.I went to the kitchen and sat back at my work area, I tried to work but I put my face in my hands and sniffled softly. why am I so stressed right now?

Harry's P.O.V

I pulled up to Louis. It was late but I got out of a tour meeting late, I also had a small practice session with my band and I realized as I was leaving that I leave for our in 3 weeks and... I still haven't told Louis. And I can't keep putting it off because that won't help anything. I knocked softly and waited but no one answered. I checked and the door was unlocked so I walked in and shut the door behind me "Louis" I furrowed my brow when I heard what sounded like quiet whimpers. I slid my boots off and hurried to the kitchen to see him with his face in his hands, there was no sound in the house but him crying softly and I felt my heart sink. "Louis" I sat in the chair by him and rubbed his back "Louis what's wrong" he took a deep breathe and wiped his eyes "Jasmine came back and begged to meet Beau.. I'm crazy stressed out about planning this event... I shouldn't even be crying it's not that big of a deal" he said running his hands through his hair. I pulled him into my arms "hey this is a problem okay?... just take a small break from this and lets go lay down and just relax" I said moving some papers aside. He just nodded and sniffled softly and whispered "I love you.. you seem to be the only thing I don't have to stress about" I bit my lip. Now I feel bad... I've been keeping that I'm leaving early from him but I can't tell him now? I guess It will just have to wait a couple more days...