Sparks Fly

chapter 38 - call it off

Louis P.O.V

I was siting on Niall's couch. Liv took Audrey and Beau to the market with her and I was talking to Niall about what happened. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I haven't seen or heard from harry in almost 2 days. After I said he should leave he went to a hotel. "mate I don't know why you're trying so hard to push him away.." I shrugged "I'm no I just- I'm.. I need to pee". I got up and went to the bathroom and stared in the mirror for a second. I heard a knock at Niall's door and didn't move. Not my problem it's Niall's house. "I rinsed my face and dabbed it dry". I walked out of the bathroom and froze seeing Harry walk in "Niall I'm sorry for dropping in like this but I really need your help" I hid back behind the wall and listened. "Harry mate-" "I'm pretty sure Louis wants to call it off.... the engagement" I felt my heart sink "mate what are you-" Niall started but Harry cut him off. "He keeps pulling away, we keep fighting.. It doesn't seem to matter what I do I'm always wrong.. I love him Niall. and I don't think he wants to be with me the way I want to be with him... I haven't had a single doubt about he and I but I don't think he feels the same way..." I bit my lip and leaned my head against the wall. He didn't know I was here.

"Mate what are you talking about" Niall asked trying to get Harry to talk slower most likely. "Louis has a lot going on... I completely get it. I'm in the middle of a tour, I have press, interviews, meetings.. but I always make sure and try to make time and let Louis and of course Beau know that they are at the top of my priorities. and some how that doesn't seem to be enough. I love Louis.. I love Beau. I want to be his husband and Beau wants us together... everyone is happy about it except Louis..." It sounded like he was about to cry. "Mate I'm sure Louis wants to Marry you... he just doesn't handle stress well.." I clenched my jaw and looked down.. he's right though. too much stress usually causes me a lot more problems. 

"I get that.. I just wish he had as much faith in me as I do him" "I do" I said stepping into the hall. "Lou... I didn't know-" Harry started and I nodded" I know.." I didn't move for a second and Niall patted Harry's shoulder "I will give you two a minute to talk". He walked by me and wen't down the hall to his room. "Louis-" I held up a hand cutting him off "I'm sorry" is all I could say. His face relaxed a it and he let out a soft sigh. I slowly walked towards him "I wasn't trying to be an ass... I just didn't know what to do with everything I had in front of me". I stood in front of him and he looked down at me "I want you Harry... if there is one thing I shouldn't have any second thoughts or stress or worries about... it's becoming your husband" a soft smile formed on his lips. "I know how crazy it's been for you too... I'm sorry I was making it all about me. but I promise to start putting more trust in you like you do me. I love you Harry... and I want to marry you. I really do." he smiled interlocking our fingers "you do..?" I nodded a real smile appearing on my lips "yes I do." he gently touched my face and leaned in closing the space between us. He kissed me softly and I pulled him closer by placing a hand on the back of his neck. When he pulled way and he smiled holding me against him "if you don't want to move houses then I understand" I shook my head "no... you were right... it would be all of ours. a place we could make our own... start over with our new life... let's get a house Harry" he smiled widely and I smiled as he picked me up carefully and kissed my face all over making me chuckle. I felt this huge weight lift off my chest and I closed my eyes hugging into Harry. It felt like half my stress just floated away. I just need to learn how to fight change and learn to except it more.. maybe then I won't drive myself to complete madness by the time I turn 40.