I build myself up
They break me down
So now I've learned to play dead
So we don't go through the cycle again
Only I decided to start standing up
Only this time I was smart
I donned a cloak of invisibility
A moldable personality
The old me long dead
The new me here to please
And the true me broken and locked up
Scares from mental wars cover my soul
Covered by the makeup of my fake heart
But every time a wound reopens
Tears come pouring out
Funny thing is
Despite all the pain others gave me
How it made me stronger
The true tormenter still exists
They beat me
Batter me to a pulp
With cruel words screamed in the dark
And I cant run away
For my most feared tormenter
Is none other than myself

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Poetry
PoesíaJust some poetry I write about being ftm trans* and other stuff. Some unfinished, others finished. A mix of the good and the bad