Poetry

Those I Love

There are those I wish to hold close

So bad I want them to love me

To me they are family

But that's the reason why I push away

I care to much

I don't want to hurt them

I want them to be happy

If I were to honestly tell you who was in my family

I would tell you about my two sisters

And two brothers

How I never met my parents

But that answer is not acceptable

So I keep it hidden

I wish I could let them know how much I love them

How much I wish for their happiness

How much I wish their pain away

How I would add it to my own if I could

If it meant you would feel relief

Feel free from your demons

The monsters within

The things that haunt your dreams

And cause you pain within

If I could just find the words to say

How I feel emotions for them that I feel around no others

They are my safety net

There if I fall from my tightrope

But at the same time I want them to go away

I know how ugly I can get

I know I'll break the safety net

So I make sure I don't fall

Cherishing that someone is there to catch me

Causing me to try even harder to make it across

I fight the demons crawling in my skin

Just for another day with them

So I hope they know

How much I care

I may not always let it show

I just wish I could let them know