Poetry

Forward

I'm drowning in my own thoughts

Unsure of the path I walk

But I have to keep pushing forward

If I stop I loose all hope

All strength

All will to live

I trip and fall

I stumble through life not knowing what comes next

But I can't stop

If I stop it will surly lead to my death

I have to forge forward

While my mind in in the process of ripping itself to shreds

Again

Looks given to a child are thrown at me

As if I can't seem to understand what they mean

Like I don't know what a condescending voice sounds like

Like I don't know the tones of disappointment

I know them all to well

They are the melodies thar sung me to sleep

They are the voices claiming to love me

I learned though

But the voices and faces didn't

They think me an ignorant fool

Which only gives me all the more power

But deprives me of the one thing I need

Love

My body craves it

Goes out of the way to find it

But is never satisfied

I hold back what is within

To unleash it would be my end

So stop giving me you're uncertain glances

I'm tiered and I got the message

I got it years ago

As everyone yelled at me to speak up

To ask questions

But when I did I got looks of disapproval

Make up you're mind

Love me or hate me

Support me or drown me

I will walk away if I have to

I will run

Full speed into the future

The past is the past

I reached out

Tried to let you all make amends

But I guess I'm alone till the end

I'll be strong

Just you watch

I've gone through a lot

But thats not what makes me tough

The past doesn't define or shape me

As much as you try to make me think so

Damn the past present and future

I'm in control now