Poetry

Dysphoria

Hi there your back again

My long time friend

I pushed you away like you didn't exist

But that just mad you pissed

You whisper in my ear

No one will love you

You aren't worth a damn

You aren't a boy

Just look at your body

Thats all the proof you need

Just look in the mirror and see

What you can never be

I tried to kill you

Tried to push you away

But you come back nocking day after day

With more pointed words to say

You taunt me

Asking me how long it will take

For these friends to leave me too

You make bets on my misery

Pulling me deeper into despairs arms

You keep stabbing me

I can win

You worm your way into my mind

And fill me with your words of doubt

You'll never be happy

No one will ever care

You can never have a true relationship

Look at your curves

Look at your hips

Look at your big boobs

And your feminine face

No amount of altercation will change you

You will always be a girl

So stop playing around

Grow up

Stop lying to people

You aren't a boy

Stop fooling yourself

Just listen to your high pitched voice

Watch your girly mannerisms

Listen to the people calling you Miss, she, her

They know the truth

I can't pent up the screams that come from you

I can's stop your lies from penetrating me

Making me doubt

The curl up in a ball

As I cry for someone to end it all now

You are a monster

My friend

Eating away at me from the inside

Slowly

Painfully