Sabriel One Shots

Homophobia

"Sam is everything okay?" Dean called through the door, I look up at the door through my tear soaked eyes. I don't answer him and I try to hold back my sobs, I wipe my eyes quickly and wait for him to walk in because I know he will.

"Sam, what's wrong?" He asked as the door opened, he closed it behind him and sat next to me on my bed. 

"Dean, do you remember Richard?" I whispered and Dean looked at me confused. 

"How could I forget?" Dean chuckled sadly, I looked at him and sniffed. Richard was my first love, I was 16 years old and I brought him over with Dean's permission. Dad had walked in on me and Richard kissing and cuddling, he made Richard leave and he chewed my ear off about being gay. Dean was able to keep dad from hitting me because he tried, but I never tried to date another guy but I still thought about them when I... Needed to.

"I'm still gay Dean but I can't bring myself to do it again," I admitted and Dean put an arm around my shoulder. 

"I'm sorry Sammy," Dean said quietly, "but it's okay he isn't here to come after you again."

"I know it's just that I have the voice in my head," I said and shook my head.

"Is there someone in mind that you're interested in? Why don't you try being with them and seeing if it could help, I'll support you no matter what Sam?" Dean asked and smiled, I smiled back because it felt good he had my back now as he did then.

"Gabriel," I answer. Dean pursed his lips and nodded with his eyebrows raised. 

"I didn't see that one coming but sure," Dean laughed, "I'll still back you up. Go on, do it today at some point."

"Sure Dean," I laughed since he sounded a little excited. It was nice to have someone treat it like it was a school girl crush and I was going to 'ask him out' since I was so nervous, I would've never done this alone. In all honesty, I tried to hit on him when we met him as a janitor since he was cute but I forgot about it when he was the trickster. Then he faked his death when Lucifer "killed" him and he came back, that's when my feelings really came back and I knew I loved him. But it only made me remember Richard and all the events of that night, me and Richard remained friends so it didn't hurt me to think about him. It only hurt to think that being gay was wrong when I knew it wasn't. 

"Hey Gabriel you probably are busy or something but I have something I want to talk about but again take your time if you're busy," I prayed. 

"Good luck," Dean smiled and walked out of the room. I picked up a book and started to read until I heard the swoosh of Gabriel's wings, him and Castiel both had different sounds as Gabriel's was a lot louder and fuller like his wings were larger. He had told me that he had six wings or 3 pairs of wings that were golden in color. 

"Hey, Samoose whatcha wanna talk about?" Gabriel smirked and leaned against the wall in front of me. 

"I wanted to ask if you'd like to go on a date with me sometime soon?" I asked and felt a little awkward, he opened his mouth but no words came out. 

"S-sure," he said a little confused, "like as a date or is it just us going out to do something?"

"Like as my date," I answered and Gabriel raised an eyebrow. 

"Didn't know you swung that way," Gabriel laughed. 

"When I was 16 I had a boyfriend," I mentioned and Gabriel stuck out his lower lip with a nod. 

"That's interesting," Gabriel said, "what happened? If you don't mind me asking."

"Dad was homophobic and didn't want me to see him so we just stayed friends," I explained.