Sabriel One Shots

Loss (sorry I'm a meme)

Trigger warning... Self harm
"Sam what... are these?" Gabriel sat next to Sam on the bed, he wrapped his hands around Sam's forearm. Sam swallowed, Gabriel worrying about the man he loved.
"I uh-" Sam tried, "it's just... scars."
"Is it- I didn't mean to if- I'm sorry," Gabriel stuttered.
"It's alright," Sam said quickly, "I'm a little surprised you haven't seen them before."
"You're always covered in layers among layers of clothing," Gabriel huffed a laugh, "it makes it very hard for me to eye you."
"Sure," Sam looked at his feet.
"Talk to me," Gabriel said and rested a hand on Sam's thigh.
"Seven of them," Sam cleared his throat and ran a finger down them, "seven of them that I... killed."
"Seven?" Gabriel questioned.
"I loved them and then they just... gone," Sam's voice cracked, "always after sex something happens. After a kiss, anything. Just gone." He wiped his face and breathed, holding back all his tears while resting his head in his hands.
"Is that why you've been making us... wait?" Gabriel asked carefully.
"Yeah," Sam nodded and finally looked up, "I'm not going to lose you."
"Sam I'm not going anywhere," Gabriel said and put his arm around his shoulders. He began rubbing them, soothing him in some sort of way.
"I don't know that," Sam whispered and leaned onto Gabriel, "you don't know that. Something will happen beyond chance, you'll have a line there too."
"Sam," Gabriel urged with pain in his voice, "I promise you that nothing will happen. I've been through it all hell, heaven, the empty, Asmodeous, and the apocalypse world. I'm not going anywhere babe." Sam took a deep breath, he wrapped his arms around Gabriel and buried his face in his neck.
"I'm scared I'm so scared Gabe," Sam whispered trying to avoid tears.
"There's no reason to be," Gabriel whispered and pressed a kiss to Sam's hair, "there's nothing that'll kill me just for that reason."
"Fuck I mean if we're loud enough it might be Dean that kills you," Sam laughed and looked up. His eyes were red and puffy, barely there tears falling from his eyes.
"I can see it," Gabriel smirked.
"You'd be surprised by how people die," Sam sniffed, "there's even a slight chance you could die... it'll happen to you if we cross that bridge. It's just what fucking happens."
"I'm different," Gabriel said, "I'm a man and  I'm an angel. That's two huge differences that might break the chain."
"Can't be too careful," Sam mumbled, "especially with you." Gabriel wanted to swoon or 'aw' or something, he felt his chest grow heavy at the words Sam spoke. He love Gabriel and he was afraid to lose him which touched Gabriel immensely. Gabriel nodded to show he heard Sam, he began stroking the taller man's hair gently.
"Don't worry too much okay?" Gabriel whispered and pressed a kiss to Sam's hair again.
"My job to worry," Sam muttered sarcastically and Gabriel laughed.
"I know," Gabriel laughed, "but I think you should try to Sam. The longer you wait the harder it's going to be, when you feel ready Sam I think it'll be easier on you if we do."
"It was a big step just to put a title on us Gabriel," Sam said and blinked back some tears, "I don't know if I'll ever be ready no matter how much I-"
"You what?" Gabriel asked and Sam swallowed, taking a deep breath.
"No matter how much I want to," Sam mumbles, "no matter how much I think about it and think 'today's the day'. But I get close and then I'm scared all over again, I really really don't want you hurt or gone."
"That explains a lot," Gabriel smiled, "I just thought you were a tease." Sam laughed and smiled, meeting Gabriel's eyes.
"It's okay to be afraid but facing your fears will be a LOT more fun this time around," Gabriel waggled his eyebrows and Sam laughed. Sam smiled and leaned toward Gabriel, meeting his lips and kissing him gently. Gabriel kissed back and took a gentle breath between them through his nose, they both smiled and pulled away.
"If something were to happen who says it wouldn't have happened already?" Gabriel whispered and flicked his eyes to Sam's lips. Gabriel thought about the plump, soft, rosy skin that filled his fantasies and pressed against his skin.
"You're not wrong," Sam scoffed but smiled, "if something was going to happen it could have happened after a mere kiss."
"Our first kiss was magical Sammy," Gabriel jokingly swooned and looked at the ceiling.
"Wait," Sam gaped at the floor, "what if that was when you were going to die but you didn't die? I kissed you before you went and fought Micheal and Lucifer, maybe that was when you were 'supposed' to die but you didn't."
"I wouldn't know," Gabriel shrugged, "what I do know is I was not going to be killed by a brother again."
"I can reason that," Sam joked.
"Well I guess I can reason yours too then," Gabriel whispered and met Sam's eyes again but this time with lust.
"You could say get behind that reasoning," Sam fluttered his lashes and tilted his head slightly.
"I could say that," Gabriel whispered and looked at Sam's lips. Sam moved forward and kissed Gabriel hungrily, sucking his lower lip to lock their lips together. Gabriel eagerly licked Sam's lower lip, Sam opened his mouth and let their tongues battle and intertwine. Sam pressed a palm to Gabriel's chest and guided him down onto his back, Sam rolled to top over him and he put his hands under Gabriel's shirt. He kissed Gabriel again, tongues and teeth dominating the space between them. Sam felt his heart racing, he was worried but he tried shaking it off. He loved Gabriel a lot, could he live with himself KNOWING he killed him like this?
"Sam you've gotta stop thinking for a bit," Gabriel breathed out, "it's not subtle that you're distracted. Hell I can practically hear your heartbeat." Sam sighed and rubbed the skin that he had his hands pressed against, the overpowering archangel seemed so small under him at the moment.  The idea turned him on even further, his dick twitching at the sight of the angel.
"You're getting closer don't back out now," Gabriel said, "I love you."
"I love you too," Sam said without a beat and Gabriel smiled.
"Prove it," Gabriel smirked, "make love to me." Sam made some animalistic noise of arousal, his dick jumped and he curled his knuckles into Gabriel's skin slightly. He moved his hands up to remove Gabriel's shirt with his wrists, he unbuckled Gabriel's belt and moved down to kiss him again as he yanked his pants down. Sam started kissing down Gabriel's neck, sucking at his jaw and eventually his chest.
"Mm Sam," Gabriel moaned and swallowed. Sam saw Gabriel's adam apple bob and took the opportunity to lick it, he nipped at the skin on Gabriel's throat.
"I uh might need some help here," Sam said with little breath in his voice. Gabriel could've came at the deep and slightly wrecked voice, he bit his lip and sighed.
"With what?" Gabriel breathed out and adjusted slightly.
"I mean uh," Sam paused awkwardly, "what do you want us to do? I'm new to... men?" Gabriel laughed a little, forgetting the hunter was a little inexperienced.
"You want to try taking the big step or just dick on dick?" Gabriel raised an eyebrow and Sam rolled his eyes affectionately with a small laugh.
"I think I can handle the big step as long as I'm on top for now," Sam answered and Gabriel smiled.
"Just use enough lube and be sure I'm open enough okay?" Gabriel whispered and Sam felt his arousal rush through his chest in a wave of warmth.
"Lube's in the-"
"Drawer I know," Sam interrupted and reached over Gabriel to grab it.
"Used it lately," Gabriel giggled.
"When I have a great looking boyfriend to dream about then yeah it gets used," Sam joked and Gabriel smiled. He would never admit how Sam's words got to him, they crawled under his skin and the loving words made him feel so warm. They stuck and in hardship he always reminisced about them, the exact place and time where Sam had said one particular thing just to make me happy. Once Gabriel got back to thinking straight, Sam had his own shirt off and was working on his pants. Gabriel reached out and helped him pull off his pants, he managed to kick them off the bed and Gabriel stroked some of his hair behind his ear leaving his hand on the side of Sam's face. Sam moved his face toward the touch and kissed Gabriel's hand gently, smiling at the man below him. Sam moved and sat between Gabriel's legs.
"Position dear?" Gabriel asked and Sam laughed a little, it was weird to be so turned on yet so amused at the same time. It felt so utterly Gabriel.
"On your back," Sam whispered and spread Gabriel's legs apart. He lubed his fingers up and pushed one in slowly, he worked the single digit around while Gabriel clenched his teeth and groaned deep in his chest. Sam smiled wickedly as he thought of fucking into the tight wet space. He pushed another finger in a little faster this time, scissoring and stretching.
"Sam your fingers are so big," Gabriel arched and then moaned loud as Sam hit a bundle of nerves. Sam realzied what he did and jabbed again to try and hit the spot again, Gabriel arched his back and moaned loudly again.
"Fuck," Gabriel panted as Sam pulled his fingers out. Sam lubed himself up, throwing one of Gabriel's legs over his shoulders and Gabriel quickly put the other leg around his other shoulder. Sam wrapped his hands around Gabriel's hips and slowly pressed in, biting his lip as he did. Gabriel arched his back and Sam stopped, knowing that women sometimes had to adjust to his size.
"It's like I'm being turned into a kebab," Gabriel whined and pushed down toward Sam.
"Mmm fuck Gabriel fuck," Sam moaned at the feeling of Gabriel sliding further onto him. Gabriel locked his feet together around Sam's lower neck/upper back area, Sam pushing in more and more. Sam bottomed out and leaned down to Gabriel's face, the flexibility the archangel expressed surprised him.
"I love you," Sam spoke slowly, "making love to you will be one of the most memorable things I do for a long time." Gabriel blinked at the man, his breath fanning the hunter's face.
"I love you too Sam," Gabriel bresthed as he tried to relax with Sam inside him, "seeing you like this has to be my heaven." Gabriel softened his eyes and huffed a laugh, absorbing the look of Sam. His hair everywhere, his lips swollen, his face tinted pink, and the loving yet desperate look on his face.
"Go ahead," Gabriel whispered and Sam left a kiss on Gabriel's nose. Sam pulled out and Gabriel clenched around him, squeezing his eyes shut. Sam pushed back in and he hissed with pleasure, Gabriel bit his lip and whined. He pushed toward Sam's dick more, Sam upon realizing this began to thrust faster. He set a rythmn, slow and paced at the same time. Sam eventually found that spot again, Gabriel's eyes glittering like stars as he saw spots in his vision. Sam found the spot and started hitting it every single time he could, he wrapped his fingers around Gabriel's dick and stroked him at the same time. Gabriel moaned loud and arched, the sound enough to make Sam cum and fill Gabriel.
"Ah Sam," Gabriel moaned loudly and brokenly as he finished after Sam. Sam's vision was staticy, he blinked and Gabriel was panting below him. Gabriel felt Sam's breath grazing his face as he came down from his orgasmic high, he exhaled loudly and continued to have his eyes locked with Gabriel's.
"Sam holy fuck," Gabriel panted and Sam smiled. He looked down at the cum filled space between them, Gabriel unlocked his feet and Sam pulled back pulling out of Gabriel at the same time.
"Wow that feels good," Gabriel whispered as Sam pulled away. Sam chuckled at the comment and laid next to Gabriel, Gabriel snapped his fingers to clean their mess up.
"Perks," Sam raised an eyebrow and propped himself up on his elbow.
"Always had 'em," Gabriel whispered, "now we can use them."
"Yeah," Sam laughed and looked at the end of the bed.
"Everything okay?" Gabriel whispered and gently tilted Sam's face back over to his own.
"Better than okay," Sam smiled and kissed Gabriel quickly, "didn't know it'd be so intimate."
"You had sex what'd you expect?" Gabriel joked.
"Well it was a little more than that," Sam shrugged, "it was more eye opening than just fucking someone you love. It was a new experience."
"You're cute when you get all sappy and romantic," Gabriel smirked and poked Sam's nose. Sam blushed a little and Gabriel snapped his fingers, dressing them both in boxers.
"I know it's right before dinner and Dean will be pissed but I want to sleep a bit," Sam said and laid down, "and you can't leave me."
"I won't argue," Gabriel said and laid on Sam's chest. He nuzzled against him and exhaled contently.
"I love you," Gabriel muttered happily.
"I love you too," Sam smiled and wrapped an arm around the shorter man's waist.
...
Gabriel felt Sam moving behind him, sweat soaking through his clothes. Sam started mumbling and whimpering like a dog being attacked, he started to kick and Gabriel knew it was a nightmare. Sam had them often, this time it was worse than usual.
"Sam up it's just a dream," Gabriel said and shook Sam's shoulders. Gabriel pinched his shoulders and Sam woke up with a loud gasp like he had stopped breathing, he stared ip at Gabriel with parted lips. Gabriel made a sad pouty face while stroking Sam's hair from his face.
"Nightmare baby," Gabriel's lip twitched downward. Sam suddenly englufed Gabriel in a hug, Gabriel making a small 'oof' sound as Sam held him to his chest tight.
"Fuck I thought you died," Sam said quickly and held Gabriel tight with panic on his face but relief in his chest.
"No no baby it's okay," Gabriel soothed and stroked Sam's hair before muttering something in Enochian.
"What?" Sam questioned.
"I've blessed you with strength," Gabriel said, "everything is going to be fine Sam." Sam exhaled and rubbed Gabriel's back, keeping a tight grip around the smaller man.
"We've gotta get dressed and ready," Gabriel laughed and Sam pressed a kiss to Gabriel's temple. He released Gabriel and they both got up and pulled their clothes on.
"You're gorgeous," Sam said and Gabriel smiled, "like really really gorgeous."
"Thank you I try," Gabriel joked and opened their room door. They walked downstairs and Sam stood close to Gabriel, not letting him out of his sight.
...
This continued all day, Sam watching Gabriel every second and more. They went on a hunt, Dean noticing Sam was off.
"Sam come on shoot it!" Dean said and Sam quickly shot, the salt bullet evaporating the ghost.
"Sam what is your deal, can't you pay attention?" Dean yelled.
"Dean," Castiel interrupted, "Sam is dealing with a lot of fear at the moment."
"Of course he is," Dean rolled his eyes.
"Let's go it's over," Gabriel firmly interrupted. They all gathered their stuff and left, the ride back being mostly silent.
...
"Hey I'm just gonna go to bed okay?" Sam told Gabriel, Gabriel squinted at him and nodded.
"I'll come with if you... want me to," Gabriel said carefully.
"Course I do," Sam said and took Gabriel's hand. They walked to their room, Sam took his shirt and pants off at the door. He tossed them aside and Gabriel did the same, they sat at the headboard and pulled the covers over them. Sam smiled and leaned on Gabriel's shoulder, wrapping his arms around his waist. Gabriel smiled and leaned his head against Sam's, wrapping a hand around Sam's forearm and closing his eyes.
There was a sudden and loud whoosh sound like the sound of wings, they both jumped but Sam grabbed a gun from under his mattress. The bunker alarms were blaring, Sam gripped Gabriel tight enough to bruise him. There was laughter, Sam stiffened at the voice. Lucifer. The memory of his real face flashed in his mind, scaring him to the core.
"I can't believe it," Lucifer laughed, "I saw you guys kiss but I didn't think that meant-" Lucifer was cackling, his hand on his stomach as he bent over laughing hysterically.
"What do you want?" Sam's chest heaved, his eyes burning like he could cry but no tears fell. Gabriel looked at Sam then looked at Lucifer, blinking in disbelief. Gabriel snapped clothes on them, causing Lucifer to laugh more.
"If I interrupted something I am sorry," Lucifer giggled.
"What do you want?" Gabriel repeated after Sam.
"Oh right I wanted to visit my favorite Winchester and apparently my brother," Lucifer said. Sam huffed and Gabriel felt Sam's heartbeat pounding hard and fast, Sam tucked his gun back under the bed since it was useless against Lucifer.
"Sam!" Dean burst in, Lucifer snapped toward Dean and shoved him agaisnt a wall.
"Dean!" Sam shouted and ran toward Dean, Castiel came in with an angel blade and an archangel blade.
"This is where it ends huh?" Lucifer smiled, "you stab me and save your... boyfriend." Lucifer started walking toward Gabriel, Dean was realsed and Sam turned to Gabriel.
"Gabriel no," Sam whispered and took the archangel blade from Castiel.
"Gabriel!" Sam yelled and threw the blade to Gabriel, Gabriel gripped it tight and rolled his in his hand.
"Oh we'll settle this," Lucifer said and smacked Gabriel onto the floor. Gabriel groaned and rolled over, his eyes glowing blue and Lucifer's glowing red in response. Gabriel moved to try and stab Lucifer, Lucifer grabbed his hand and pinned it above his head. Gabriel's eyes glowed again and Lucifer was against a wall, Gabriel walked toward him and Sam clicked into action. He rushed over to where he could see what was happening, his chest rising and falling obnoxiously.
"Brother don't do this," Lucifer swallowed as Gabriel pressed the blade to his chest. He pressed the knife in slightly, his grace leaked out and Gabriel watched it leak out.
"I'm sending you back to The Cage," Gabriel growled and held his fingers up, "any last words?"
"Sam- Was- My- Bitch- First," Lucifer panted between words, "Enjoy- My- Sloppy- Seconds." Gabriel tightened his grip on the blade, snapping his fingers and sending him back to The Cage.
"Is everyone okay?" Dean asked and looked around.
"Yeah we're okay," Gabriel said and looked around at everyone. He looked at Sam who had glassy eyes, his face looked even more afraid than before.
"Alright then Lucifer is in The Cage?" Castiel asked and Gabriel nodded.
"He's gone?" Dean asked and Gabriel nodded, he looked over at Sam with a face that read 'are you okay?'.
"What was Lucifer talking about Sam?" Dean asked.
"Dean," Sam bit back a response, "we've talked about this. A long time ago."
"That? Why would he tell Gabriel that!" Dean yelled and Sam winced a little.
"Dean you really think he wouldn't mention it to him, especially since we're together?" Sam said and ran a hand through his hair, he sighed and closed his eyes. Gabriel took a breath, he shooed Dean and Castiel from the room and closed the door.
"Sam, are you okay?" Gabriel asked and Sam blinked at Gabriel.
"No you almost got killed," Sam sighed, "it's my fault he wouldn't have gotten here if I just-" Gabriel cut Sam off with a kiss, gripping his face hard.
"Sam shut the hell up no one's dying," Gabriel growled against Sam's lips, "I can only assume what Lucifer has done to you. And I know you're scared Sam, but I'm here and it's all okay." Sam wrapped his arms around Gabriel's waist and cried into his shoulder, bending over and holding him close.
"I love you and I'm okay," Gabriel said, "we're okay."
"I'm sorry," Sam whimpered, "I'm sorry about having all this shit you have to deal with too. If I was anybody else you wouldn't have to deal with all this Gabriel I'm sorry."
"What'd I just say? I love you there's nothing that'll change that," Gabriel whispered.
"I love you too Gabriel," Sam whispered.
"Let's just lay back down," Gabriel whispered and Sam smiled a little.

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