Sabriel One Shots

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-Because I'm not over it

I zapped away, leaving the bunker and Sam. Dean hadn't shown up yet, I knew he'd be pissed if I decided to come back too. I didn't want to be a nuisance to them and I mean, what was so wrong with my life with pornstars and food. I was now in an abandoned building so I could think, then Castiel appeared suddenly. He kicked the door in and I looked at him.

"Why did you leave?"

"How did you find me?" I brushed off his question.

"Why. Did. You. Leave?" Castiel repeated, I took a deep breath and I didn't want to lie to him but I wanted to stretch the truth.

"I couldn't hurt him again," I mumbled and shuffled my feet back and forth, "he has been through enough."

"What do you mean?" Castiel asked and tilted his head, squinted his eyes, the usual. 

"I love him Cas,"I sighed, "he said he needed me. I knew what that meant, that's why I couldn't say." 

"He needs you," Cas said.

"That's why I can't go back," I said. 

"Gabriel please," Castiel said and I exhaled. The way he said it, so randomly, I need you. And when he told me about how he understood what I was going through, it was too much for the moment and I couldn't sit by and deal with that elephant in the room. So I left.

"Bye Cas," I blinked at the floor, "I'll be back." 

"Can you at least talk to him for a second before you go?" Castiel urged and I sighed, I brought my arms up and slapped them back to my sides. 

"No I'm going I am not going to admit anything to that 8-foot tall moose," I said, "I'm sorry but I'm going." And I was gone, I went to Austin Texas in another abandoned warehouse so I could think. 

Do I talk to him, do I hide, do I run? I can't keep running I just can't, what do I say? I'd love to join Team Free-Will, anyone would, but Sam. Why would he say that? Why couldn't it just stay with them hating me?

"Damn it," I growled and snapped a sucker into my hands. I put it in my mouth and ate it, clearing my mind for a solid 5 minutes. 

"I'm going back tomorrow," I said and walked outside, "they'll be asleep when I get back there." 

...

"Sam, what the hell?" Dean growled at me 

"Just relax," I tried and he bitch faced me. 

"He's coming back," Castiel said quietly, "I talked to him before he left. He has some things he needs to think about, he doesn't want to run but that's just what he does."

"Shit," I muttered. I told him a lot more than I wanted to, more than I should've. He was overwhelmed and I shoved the idea of joining us at him along with it, it was an amazing idea in my head. It would've made me so happy if he would've just said yes, it would've been perfect if he just said yes. But I shouldn't have just bombarded him like that I always fuck up, I mess up everything for everyone-

"Sam are you okay?" Castiel asked and I blinked at him.

"Y-yeah I'm fine Cas," I cleared my throat, "so the business with Ketch and the rift are okay?"

"Yeah if Gabriel comes back," Dean yelled before exhaling, "I'm going for a drive I'll be back." 

"Cool off," I said and waved him off. 

"Cas is he okay?" I asked him and Castiel nodded. 

"He has his reasons for leaving but he did say he'd be back," Castiel said.