Mess / Rant

Oversharing, Peep, Random Facts

2-23-18
God fuck what the fuck
Life.
Fuck it.
It=life.

So yeah. Lots of shit. Lots of change. I'm actually really fucked up. Not like drugs. Like bad fucked up lol listening to all my old destructive music. Idk man I could try to explain but it usually never makes much sense. Long story short I'm handling my shit, I'm used to this type of bs, and I'll do what I need to do and deal w it. But fuck does it fucking suck.

So I figured I'd update to get my mind on other things and I'm full of words and thoughts and emotions and fuckkk (expect a poem tonight kidz).

Random facts about me bc why not:
I prefer dark chocolate over any other chocolate. I'm really into rich foods. Like cheesecake. And just like cheddar cheese (sharp cheddar or Colby jack. Or Wisconsin cheese ugh fuck). And dark chocolate. And wine. Fuck me the fuck up. Also obsessed with vegetables. Like for real I fucking love pizza but like get me a bag of salad and I'd honestly love you forever (side note this dude had two oranges thrown at him across the hallway and one rolled under the vending machine with like a shit ton of dust and shit and I was like "I'll willingly eat that" bc I'm a fruit hoe right and he threw me the other one. Like what. It made my day.).

I grew up on Nickelback. First song I remember knowing was Rockstar and every time I'd get into a car w the radio on, I'd stupidly hope that song would come on and of course it didn't bc it was like some pop station or whatever. But yeah. Also used to have an obsession with Usher at like 9?? We don't go there though 😂

My mom dated my uncle at one point. Wow. Fucking hick. And I mean. It wasn't her actual brother by blood so idk if that helps at all but yeah that was extremely weird. She sent us upstairs to this attic with a mattress while she drank w him downstairs and we watched the same episode (maybe there were two? Idk) of spongebob on repeat on VHS. We'd have to call her every time it was over though bc we didn't know how to make it start over and she was probs drunk as fuck. Childhood 😂👌

I love math. Numbers fascinate me. Algebra especially. I think I like it bc of all the work. Like I love long division. I just love being able to work in my zone and feel like I'm working. That's why making beats is cool bc rhythm is just numbers. And that's so fun to me.

I just had sleep paralysis for the first time ever and fuckkk. The dream itself was v traumatic and I've hardly slept much this whole week.