Suggested Song: Let You Down by NF
Cassidys POV
If you pretend to be someone else for long enough, eventually... both you and others will believe it.
But when someone who can see right through, notices you're fake, everything will crash around you. They will reveal your scars and then knock you down to ground level.
Everyone around you will slowly disappear, and you will be left in the cold to rot away in the dirt.
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I woke up in my bed. It had been a week since my birthday week.
And for about 7 days straight, I smiled genuinely. I could actually call myself normal. But what I realised is... if you're normal, you're boring.
I stared at the roof and built up the courage to slither out of bed. Sometimes I seriously doubt my ability to cope with situations.
But how could I be happy right now? The boy I'm in love with is with my best friend.
I felt so lonely.
And I hated Crystal for being with Colby, even though that wasn't her fault.
I'm so fucking sorry Crystal. But my heart is taking over me.
I walked out of my room and into the kitchen. Sitting there was Sam, Crystal and Colby.
Sam was washing dishes and Colby and Crystal were talking and holding hands.
I roll my eyes and plonk down on the couch. I felt really empty.
Being sad sucks. But if there's one thing that is worse than feeling sad... its feeling empty.
I turned the TV on and ignored everyone.
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I had been watching TV for about an hour before my relaxing was interrupted.
"Hey Cassidy, do you want to go out for dinner with me and Colby tonight? Sam can't" Crystal says smiling at me
I just glare right through her.
"Cassidy!? Why are you ignoring me?!"
"Ugh!" I sigh and continue glaring
"CASSIDY! DON'T IGNORE ME!" She begins yelling and my ears pick up the frequencies.
"I don't want to go to dinner... and hear how perfect your relationship is!" I snap
"Wow! Showing your true fucking feelings!" She rolls her eyes and crosses her arms.
I hated how much Crystal and I were fighting lately.
It broke me more every time.
Our screams continued back and forth for about ten minutes.
But it was cut short when my phone began to ring.
I picked it up and put it up to my face
Cassidy: "Yeah What?!?"
Unknown: "Hello, I'm looking for Cassideana Mathews
Cassidy: "Speaking?"
Unknown: "Oh hi Cassideana. My name is Reece Withers from Yulvail Hospital in New York. I have some unfortunate news for you. I'm sorry to tell you, but your sister Rose was in a horrible car accident last night. She is in critical condition, and we are not sure if she will pull through. I was just calling to suggest you come and see her, just in case she does pass"
Cassidy: "I-I... ok... t-thank you"
I hung up the phone and swallowed my sorrows. I looked up at Crystal who was glaring at me with angry eyes.
I looked at her. Her eyes burned holes straight through me. My heart beated fast and my eyes began tearing up.
"What?!?" She shouts across the room at me
"I-its Rosey... She's, in hospital. She was in a car accident... they don't think she's gonna live" I say. I stare at Crystal, and watch her face grow from Pissed to sorry.
"Oh god Cass" she says as she walks up and pulls me into a hug.
Feeling her warmth wrap around me, was calming and reassuring. But it wasn't enough.
Rosey's pain, was pulling in my chest.
A/N
Sorry I'm not updating often. I've been working on a new book. I hope this chapter was alright. It's a bit boring, sorry. But it will build up again.
