Without You

Chapter 38 - Sweeter and talks.

So...

This was the part where I’m worried. Or afraid enough. My palms become sweaty all of a sudden. My heart palpitating a bit faster and louder that my hearing hurts. My throat is lump and my eyes are trained to my boyfriend who is still sitting beside me. And he’s looking at me too.

It was my turn to answer their question. Specifically Matt’s question. I use my both hands to grab some sands for me to hold kasi hindi ako makuntentong nakahawak lang ako sa damit ko. “Are you two together or still in the process of getting to know each other stage? Ikaw Shienne ha, masyado mong pinahihirapan itong si gwapo.”

How should I tell them in a simple manner? Seb put his arms around my shoulder, saying that it’s all gonna be okay when I tell them. I inhaled deeply.

“Yes, Seb is my boyfriend.” I says finally and I close my eyes for a second. I’m waiting for their reaction but nothing came out to them.

In an instant, Mattie made her way to me and hugged me. While Valeen and Karla giggling at their original position.

“I’m so happy for you frenny.” she whispered that me can only hear.

“Thanks friend.” I patted her at her back. She really is a great friend.

She backed away from me and sat beside Stephen again. Seb’s friend are a little bit tipsy and some of them had gone to sleep. Only Dilyon and Migz are with us but I notice that they are bit sleepy too and I think na aalis na rin sila.

I tilt my head to Seb and he smiled in return. It’s like those rare moments where I’m were the only one special in his yes. That is what I’m portraying right now.

“I’m proud of you.” he said matter of factly. Ng bumalik ulit kami sa normal.

“Para saan naman?” nagtataka kong tanong. Ano ang nakakaproud sa ginawa ko? Sinagot ko lang naman ang tanong ni Mattie. Pero sa totoo lang, grabeng ipon ng lakas ng loob ang ginawa ko. Linunok ko ng tuluyan ang napakataas kong pride.

Nauubos na ang apoy na nasa gitna namin. Pero isa sa amin, walang gumagalaw dito para dagdagan pa ng panggatong. Siguro, instict na rin namin ang nag-uudyok para ubusin na lang ang natitira sa bonfire para makapagpahinga na rin kami. As of this time, kaming grupo na rin lang ang gising.

“Dahil... nagawa mong sabihin sa kanila na tayo na.”

“Oo nga e.”

“Exit na kami ‘tol.” paalam ni Dilyon kay Seb.

Seb waved his hand to them. “Sige tol. Sunod na lang kami.” Pinisil niya ang kamay ko. “We should also go to sleep. It’s eleven in the evening already. Maaga pa tayong gigising bukas kaya please, matulog na tayo.”

“Paano yung mga kasama natin? Maiiwan na lang ba sila dito? Saka hindi pa kaya nauubos yung bonfire natin.” tinuro ko ang apoy na nasa harapan namin. Pinagsalikop niya ang mga palad namin.

“Bakit mo pa sila hihintayin? Hindi naman sila ang kasama mo sa loob ng tent. It’s me, who’ll sharing it with you. We need some privacy. Talaga bang ayaw mo akong kasama? Bakit mo pa ako pinapunta rito?” Andito na naman tayo. “Kung hihintayin mo pang maupos yan ---” he pointed the bonfire. “hindi na tayo makakatulog dahil bukas pa yan mawawala. So, let’s go to sleep.” pinal niyang sabi.

Okay!

Inalis niya ang kamay niya sa pagkakahawak ko. Unti-unti siyang tumayo at inilalayan niya akong tumayo na din. Kaya wala na akong nagawa kundi ang sumama sa kanya at magpaalam sa mga kasama namin.

“Tulog na kami.”

“Ang aga pa. Matutulog na kayo?” angil ni Valeen. Tinuro ko si Seb indicating na siya ang nag-aaya ng matulog kami. Sinamantala ko talaga ang pagturo sa kanya habang nakatalikod ito. Kinukuha niya kasi yung tela na inupuan namin.