There Will Be Lies || COMPLETED

15

I went to school the next Monday, not sure if I was feeling ready to face Blake, knowing that I only had until Friday to kill him.

He hadn't texted me at all over the weekend and it made me realise how much I took speaking to him for granted.

I suppose he wanted me to have a chance to think about my feelings.

But it still hadn't hit my mind that he actually likes me.

Me? Of all people.

~

I arrived to school earlier than normal to find Aria sitting alone in form class, with red eyes and a blotchy face.

"Aria..." I walked over and sat next to her.

She looked up at me and snapped, "Are you here to gloat?"

Taken aback I asked, "What do you mean?"

"You're here for five minutes and Blake is already head over his heels for you."

Head over heels? I'm sure his feelings aren't that deep... Are they?

"I've had a crush on him forever and- Ay dios mío!" She crumpled on her seat tears streaking down her face. "I'm sorry. I've just realised how pathetic I sound. This isn't any of your fault and I shouldn't be taking it out on you."

I felt my shoulders relax and said as gently as I could, "Sometimes it's nicer to stay friends with someone - you wouldn't want a serious relationship to ruin the great thing you have with Blake."

She nodded, wiping her tearstained cheeks and smiled at me, "You're right Tess. You always seem to say and do the right thing and I'm so grateful to have you as a friend."
She pulled me into a hug but worry, swarmed through my stomach like a group of angry wasps.

"You always seem to say and do the right thing."

What if I didn't know what was right or wrong anymore?

~

After school, I paced my room back and forth to try and keep the big job I had to do out of my mind.

Then, I received a text message from Blake:

-Blake-
Hi Tess, I didn't see you at school today. I hope you aren't avoiding me :(
SENT: 5:00pm

I took a deep shaky breath but didn't reply.

Half an hour later, he sent another one:

-Blake-
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey!
^Have you heard that song before?
SENT: 5:31pm

I laughed at the randomness of the text but sighed.

I need to detach myself from him. It will only make things easier...

-Blake-
I hope that made you laugh.
SENT: 5:31pm

-Blake-
I love your laugh :)
SENT: 5:32pm

I hoped he would stop, but he continued, making me feel even worse.

-Blake-
I know you are seeing these messages :'(
SENT: 6:12pm

-Blake-
Have I done something wrong...?
SENT: 6:15

Painful guilt snuck it's way into my mind. I replied:

-Me-
No, nothing at all

-Blake-
YOU REPLIED! 🎉
But something's definitely up.
What's wrong Tess, tell me?
SENT: 6:20

I really wanted to spill all my feelings out or even say that my real name is Olivia not Tessa.

But I couldn't. It couldn't even be an option.

At that thought, I realised the horrifying reality was that Blake doesn't really like me; he likes Tessa, not the real me.

He texted again, an hour later:

-Blake-
Please answer me Tessa, please
SENT: 7:40pm

Before I went to sleep, he sent me two last messages:

-Blake-
We are born with two eyes, two ears, two legs and two arms but only one heart.
Because the other was given to someone else: for us to find.

SENT: 9:20pm

-Blake-
Tess, I think you're the one with my other heart. Only you.
SENT: 9:21pm

I read the last text and broke down into tears, placing my hand on my heart as if it linked me to Blake.

Burying myself beneath the covers of my bed, I switched my phone off and cried myself to sleep.

I just wanted all of this to be over, but deep down inside, although I felt as if I couldn't bring myself to do it, I knew that there was only one way to end this.

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Sorry this chapter wasn't the best but I didn't want to rush into the party straight away - you get me? 😂

The next chapters will be interesting I promise!
-Debs