Freefall (Kakashi HatakeXOC Part1)

Drinking Helps

I take another drink from my bottle of sake, as Kurenai says,

"It wouldn't be anything out of the ordinary, these things happen all the time. Trust me."

I lower the bottle from my lips, and can't help but scoff at her words, I reply with,

"Yeah, well, I don't like it. I know it should be normal, I've seen those looks you give Asuma."

Kurenai's cheeks flushed a light pink, I must have hit a sensitive topic with her. Good.

"Don't you bring us into this, we're here to talk about you and Kakashi, remember?"

I could tell she was trying to keep our conversation away from her and Asuma's relationship. It was kind of obvious they had a thing for each other. I sigh and shake my head,

"Fine, sorry. I'm just getting really stressed out about this, it's all confusing to me. One minute all I want to do is hit him, and the next, I want to kiss him. I don't know what to do."

"Try talking to him about it, that might help you clear some things up. Kakashi's a pretty understanding guy, he might even feel the same way about you."

I could tell she was teasing me, there was no way in hell I was talking to him about it.

"Sorry, but, I'm not doing that. He probably just sees me as a friend and roommate," I say with a stern tone to my voice.

Kurenai takes a drink from her own cup, then lowers it and says,

"You'll have to face these feelings eventually, you can't just drink your problems away. No matter how much sake you have."

"I sure can try though."

Maybe she was right after all, maybe I should talk to him about it. But, if I did, it could ruin our friendship. I don't want to do that, he was one of the people I trust most, with my life even.

Then again, if we talked about it, it could turn out to be one of the best things that could happen to me. I mean, Kakashi's so nice, and he has proper manners. Unlike most of the other guys around the village. I bring my bottle to my lips again, as the liquid slides down my throat, I finally realized something.

I love him.

I love that know-it-all, Kakashi Hatake!

God dammit.

~

My vision was blurry, and I was unsteady on my feet as I close the apartment door. I was drunk, I knew I was, but I didn't care. As I struggle to take my sandals off, I heard footsteps on the wooden floor. I look up as I get my other sandal off, Kakashi was watching me with crossed arms, and a disappointed look on the visible part of his face.

"You're late, do you have any idea what time it is? I was getting worried about you," his voice was quiet.

I walked over to him and pressed a finger to his chest. I hiccuped and somehow managed to say,

"Who do you think...you're talking to? I can do whatever I want."

I fall against him and wrap my arms around his neck to hold myself up,

"You're so...bossy. I don't know why I love you."

I reach up with one hand and go for his mask. But, he grabs my hand and says,

"You need to go lie down, you're drunk again."

I somewhat steady myself on my feet, my eyes catch his.

"Why don't you do lie down? I don't need you...telling me what to do. I hate how I...love you."

I was starting to feel tired, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to drink all that sake. Maybe.

Kakashi places a hand on my back, and starts leading me to my bedroom. I could hardly keep my eyes open now, why wasn't he scolding me like he normally does? This wasn't the first time I've come home drunk, maybe it was because I said I loved him. I don't know, whatever the reason, I'm glad he wasn't telling me off right now.

He helps me climb into bed as we enter my bedroom. I pull the blanket over myself as he unwraps my scarf from my neck and lays it at my feet. Kakashi pushes me back gently, so I was laying on my back. He leans down and kisses my forehead with masked lips. He straightens his posture, then says,

"Get some sleep, you need it."

He leaves my room silently, my eyes close and I shift around under my blanket. I let my head fall to the side against my soft pillows.

God, I loved him.