Divergent : Tris Pedrad

Chapter 36

"What?" Zeke asked, his voice deadly.

I stared at him, tears filling my soft eyes. They all stood in front of me, looks of pure frustration and shock. I pressed my head into my palms, tears trickling down my cheeks. My phone buzzed beside me and before I could grab it, Uriah snatched it. "No! Stop it!" I shouted.

"I shouldn't have even told you this much- oh god he's going to-" I got to my feet, pressing my hand to my mouth to hold back a sob.

"'You got away this time, next time it won't be so easy. When I get my hands on you again, you're dead. But in the meantime, you need to be punished'," Uriah read out loud.

"Oh god-" I said, wiping my eyes furiously.

Zeke took the phone from him, read through the text. "Tris- god tris what the fuck. He's been threatening you for weeks. You didn't say anything!" He exclaimed.

I cringed, stepping back in fear. "H-he said he'd kill you Zeke. And he said he'd kill you Uriah. And four. And Mom," I cried.

Four wrapped himself around me, pulling me into his chest. "Shhhhhh, you're okay," he mumbled into my hair.

"He hates me," I said quietly, looking towards Zeke.

"No- he would never hate you," he replied.

"Dammit tris- you almost died tonight. I almost lost you," Zeke said.

"Tris why wouldn't you tell us this. He was threatening you," Uriah said, much more gentle then Zeke.

"It's okay love," Four said, releasing me.

"He's been stalking you. Following you. You didn't do anything," Zeke said, his voice loud and powerful.

I stepped back, nervously flinching. "Zeke calm down," Uriah mumbled.

I hit my leg hard, nearly falling. "I'm sorry, please don't hate me," I pleaded.

His face softened. Sadness replacing frustration. "Tris I don't hate you. I could never hate you," he said.

"All I do is cause problems."

"Tris- no you don't," Uriah said, irritated.

"Yes I do. Just leave me alone, okay?" I said, shaking my head.

Zeke just walked to me, grabbing me and pulling me into a hug. The only hug that could comfort me right now. His familiar smell, his soft grip. I feel so guilty. I put them all through so much. They would be so much better without me. I just kept piling on the list of problems I caused. "Im so sorry," he said into my hair.

"I love you," he said.

"I love you too," I said back.

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My phone buzzed. I looked to four, who sat on the bed beside me.i hesitantly excepted it, putting it on speaker. "I know you told."

"What?" I asked, playing dumb.

"You told them. Now cut them all off," he said.

"Wh-what?" My heart jumped.

"Dump Four."

My breath hitches in my throat. "No- please no," I pleaded.

"Do it. Or dear mommy dies," he snapped.

The line went dead. Four looked at me- tears in his eyes. "Four-"

"No- you have to. For the time being. It's okay. I'll go talk to Zeke," he mumbled.

He opened the door, walking out. I ran after him. "Four- please. We can do something-"

"Tris- I love you to the moon and back, but I'm not going to be the reason you or your mom is in danger," he said.

"Four-"

He cut me off, pressing his lips to mine. He pulled back after a minute. Tears fell down his eyes, and now my own. "Tris- I love you more then anything. You are my world, and will always be. I'll wait for you. I'll wait for him to be gone," he mumbled in my ear.

He pulled away and I released a sob. "No, please. Please don't leave me. I have nothing," I begged.

"I love you," he said,stroking my cheek gently.

My heart felt broken in my chest. This person took everything from me.

He has taken everything. Everything from me. My happiness. I'm always scared, always waiting for his next move. My love of my life was taken from me. My life was taken. I had nothing left. My only choice left was to end it. End my brothers pain. End my suffering. End fours suffering. End my friends suffering. End my moms suffering. I did nothing but Burden then. Everything would be better without me. I slowly made my way up the stairs, the tears coming harder and faster. I found a pen and pencil. And I wrote.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. For all the pain I caused. For all the sadness I caused you. I've ruined it all. Everything that has happened is my fault. I did this to us. I have ruined everything. I love you. So much. Both of you. I love Four. Forgive me.

Tears stained the paper. I laid the pen down and got up swiftly, walking down the stairs on shaking legs. I saw four, Uriah and Zeke talking in the kitchen and I set the paper down on the table, turning and heading back upstairs. I walked to my bathroom and pulled my pill bottle and razor out. I grabbed my phone and sat on the toilet seat. I had to hear their voices one last time. I picked my phone up and dialed his number. I was choke up with sobs. "Hello?" Zeke asked into the phone.

"Zeke- p-put it on speaker," I cried.

"Tris- are you okay?" He asked.

"Yes."

"I love you. I love you all so much."

"What? Tris what are you doing?" He asked, his voice frantic.

"Forgive me " I mumbled.

"Tris, dont't you dare- don't do it!" His voice was hysterical.

I heard feet on the stairs and I poured the pills in my mouth taking some water and swallowing it. "TRIS!" I hear Zeke scream.

I instantly felt sick. I crawled into the tub weakly.
I heard the door open and I shut my eyes. It was over. It was all over. I was free.

YALL OMG IM SO SAD AFTER WRITING THIS IM CRYING.