Divergent : Tris Pedrad

Chapter 32

I woke up with a start to the door opening. I groaned. Tobias had wrapped himself around me, tightly cuddling my small body into him. He was warm against me. "Ugh, really?" I heard Zekes disgusted voice exclaim.

I raised my head gently and found Zeke and Uriah, with disgusted faces.

"Shut up! He's sleeping," I hissed.

I felt him begin to stir and he gently pressed his lips to my head. I carefully tried removing myself but he was wrapped too tightly around me. Zeke stifled a laugh at my struggles. "Oh-just Shut it," I snapped.

"Baby- I have to get up," I told him gently.

He didn't move, he just groaned in response. I hugged and pushed at his stone arms. He released me and I set my feet on the ground before getting up. I wiped my eyes and stretched. I sat on the couch and picked up my phone. I had another missed text from the unknown number. 'You guys are so cute! He's lucky I didn't off him'.

My heart

Stopped

Who ever is sending me these, is taking credit for this. I casually set my phone down. Tobias had now stirred. "Uh-Hey Four," I said gently.

"Yeah?" He asked, drawing everyone's attention to him.

"Do- do you Uh remember what happened?" I asked awkwardly.

"What do you mean?" He asked, grogginess in his voice.

"The - crash," I stuttered.

He tended up. "Yeah- a- a car swerved and I lost control. It was nothing Tris," he reassured me.

"What kind of car was it?" I asked, chewing my lip.

Nervousness took over my body. My palms were wet with sweat. My hands were shaking. "Uh- I don't know?" He replied.

"Why does it matter Ri?" Uriah asked, Zeke making a confused face as well.

"I-I have to go," I said getting up.

I sprinted out of the room as fast as I could. I slammed the elevator button and waited impatiently. I slammed the button again and again. My hands were shaking. A hand grabbed my shoulder and I whirled around frantically. Zekes concerned fAce met my own and I released a breath. "Tris? What the hell is going on?" He asked.

I tried to push past him but he easily grabbed me and pulled me back. "Zeke! Leave it!" I snapped shoving him.

In a swift motion, he had me locked against the wall, closing me in so I couldn't get away. "Now, please tell me what's going on," he pleaded.

"Zeke, honestly, it's nothing," I said, biting back tears.

"Tris-" I had to make up an excuse for my behavior.

"Zeke! It's just- I can't stop thinking about- about Dad," I said tearfully.

He flinched before pulling me into a hug. "I'm so sorry," he mumbled into the top of my head.

I hated lying to him. But telling him could only cause more damage. I couldn't put more worry and pressure on them. I could handle this. My phone buzzed again and I released Zeke. "I have to take this," I said gently.

He nodded and I opened my phone. 'Tell anyone about our texts and you'll kiss your beloved brothers goodbye'.
My heart momentarily stopped. Oh god, what have I done.
I crammed my phone in my pocket and entered the bathroom. I found myself hyperventilating. I placed my hands on the back of my head to help myself breath. My body w was shaking. Whoever was doing this, really wants me to hurt. I chewed my lip, pinching my eyes closed. Tears slipped down my cheeks and I but back sobs. This was my fault. All of it. I did this to him. I can't keep doing this. Every time I get close to someone I hurt them, or they hurt me. My dad, my mom, Four, Al, the list goes on. I slammed against the wall and slid down. This was my fault.

———————————————————
I sat on the couch, watching Four sleep as Zeke and Uriah got us food from Subway. I kept going back to the texts, reading them over 100 times. Analyzing them. I was terrified. This person had control over me. Over my life. And if I didn't follow, it would all come crashing down. I gently picked up my phone and opened the text again, looking them over. The door opened and I jumped, nearly falling off the couch. Zeke and Uriah appeared, food in their hands. "We come bearing food," Uriah announced playfully. I attempted a smile, but quite honestly, I couldn't muster it right now.

Zeke threw me a bag and I opened it, looking at the food. I set it down and stared at it. I couldn't eat, not with everything on my mind. I chewed my lip and gently tapped my foot. Tobias was eating some apple sauce that was brought to him, along with a red popsicle. I chewed my lip nervously, staring at my phone. "Tris- something wrong?" Uriah asked.

I pulled on a fake smile, asking my
Head. "No of course not," I replied much too quickly.

"Alright."

I hate this. Not telling them what's happening. Not being able to share it with them. The trusted me, and I was breaking it. Little did I know,

The secrets were just beginning.