Divergent : Tris Pedrad

Chapter 45

Pretty intense chapter. I hope you guys are enjoying the story. I'll update ASAP. I'm really enjoying writing this :)

Pain. All I  felt was pain as I stirred. First in my head. Pounding pain. Light seeped onto my eyelids and I cracked my eyes open, groaning. The movement of my face was painful. My whole body ached,a everywhere. I reached my hand up despite the aching pain shooting throughout my body from the movement. I felt the dried blood on my face and touched my split lip and the welts on my face. I was now noticing my surroundings. I was in a room I didn't recognize. I was on a bbig bed. Everything was fuzzy. My thoughts were cut off by the awful pain between my legs as I attempted to sit up. I gasped in agony and lifted the sheets. The bed was bloodied and I had nothing on except a bra. My thighs were coated with blood and my body was caked in bruises. I felt tears push at the back of my eyes as the realization hit me.

I was raped.

I gasped in pain. It was so fuzzy. I had drank too much. I could remember being pulled by someone up the stairs. I remember being pushed into a room. I couldn't remember who did it. It was too fuzzy. I couldn't stop myself from crying. I let this happen to myself. I was too fucked up to stop the guy that did this. Agony ripped through my body. I reached my hand up to my neck and felt a massive bite mark on my neck, which was covered in dried blood. Pain seared in my wrist and I observed it through my tears. It was twisted badly, broken or sprained. I released a sob and tucked my head in my hands, crying. I let myself cry, for how long, I don't know. I spotted my phone on the side table and I reached over, ignoring the screaming protest in my body. I had about 30 missed calls and 60 missed texts. I felt more tears push at the back of my eyes. I had to get dressed. Burning, agonizing pain pressed between my legs and I forced myself to the edge of the bed. I forced myself to my feet, holding the bed in support. I released a groan of pain as pain shot up through me. I slowly urged myself to the dresser, every step causing me to cry out in pain. I reaching the dresser and grabbed it in pain. I now saw myself in the mirror through my tears. I had dried blood trailing down my nose and chin. My lip was fat and there was welts on my face. Blood covered the bite mark on my neck and a dark bruise in the shape of a hand was wrapped around my neck. I had bite marks and hickies on my chest. Blood covered my thighs. I released a sob and my head spun. I bent down, despite the awful pain in my lower stomach. I pulled out a pair of some black sweatpants and slowly pulled them on, stopping to take breaks. My chest felt like it was going to collapse. I struggled for air as I sobbed. I pulled on my zip up hoodie, unable to put a shirt on because of the agonizing pain. I was sobbing, gripping the dresser to keep from collapsing. My head was spinning violently and my body was shaking in pain. I pulled my phone out before hesitantly texting Chrissy. 

I need a ride. I'm at Shauna and Marlene's

A few moments passed and she replied. 

I just left. I'll turn around and grab you. I think Uriah and Zeke are there, could you get a ride from them?

I choked on my sobs and had to cover my mouth to contain my hysterical crying. 

No. Please just get me.

Okay. I'll be there in 2.

I pulled the hood up with my good arm and whimpered in pain. I can't believe I let this happen to myself. I was so fucking stupid. This was my fault. 

I walked out of the room, gripping the wall tightly. I began going down the stairs, incredibly slowly, my head spinning. I was terrified I was going to pass out from the awful pain. I forced myself to keep going, gripping the railing so tight that my knuckles turned white. I hissed in pain as I finally stepped off the stairs. I limped to the front door as quietly as possible, ducking my head and painfully opening it. I was out of breath. My head was pounding and my vision was blurring. Christina's car had pulled up and I gripped the nearest thing to me, groaning in pain. I heard her car door open and I lifted my head, letting my hood slide off. "Tris?- Tris oh my fucking god what happened?!" She sprinted to me, nearly slipping on some ice.

"Chrissy, I need you to take me to the hospital, okay?" I mumbled, nearly collapsing.

She caught me and gently slid her arm around me to support me. She helped me into her car and I released a cry of pain as she buckled me. "I'm So sorry ri, I'm so sorry." 

She got into the car and turned it on. It was silent for a while before she spoke. Silent tears trailed down my face. "What happened," she said, her voice tight and worried. 

I took a shaky breath, swallowing the spit in my mouth. It tasted like blood. I didn't know how to tell my best friend I had let myself get raped. I let this happen. I fucked up bad. I slowly opened my mouth and swiped at my tear soaked cheeks. "Um-...... I was....... I was raped," I slowly said. 

She went silent, not able to find words. After a few moments she spoke up. "Do you know who-"

"I can't remember," I sobbed. 

"Tris, this is not your fault. I swear we'll get the sick mother fucker who did this. Tris- Tris listen. This isn't your fault. You're okay now. I'm here for you. You'll be okay love," She said reassuringly.

No matter what anyone said, I wasn't okay.

Hope you enjoyed it my loves!! Im getting my 5 month post op brain MRI tomorrow and I'm praying it's all clear so I can start working out again!! I love you guys, thank you for all the support.