Divergent : Tris Pedrad

Chapter 52

Here it is..... the mother trucking chapter you've been waiting for <3 ily guys !!!

I sat on the hard floor, in front of my tall white mirror. My eyes taking in my body, and all the bruises and imperfections. I uncomfortably ran my finger tips over my chest moving up to my neck, resting on the bite mark which was slightly healed. I let my eyes drift to my pink cast, which had lots of drawing scattered upon it, curtesy of Chrissy.

Looking at myself, sitting on the floor almost made me feel disappointed. I let this happen. Everything that's happened to me has been my fault. I'm a fuck up. All I do is hurt everyone around me, again and again. I feel disappointed in myself, for letting down my brothers and constantly breaking their hearts. I felt a tear slip from my watery eyes and I reached up to quickly swipe it away. My body still ached, like I could still feel him hurting me. I heard a knock pound at the door and I dabbed at my eyes quickly, slowly getting to my feet. "Uh- just one sec," I said, trying to brush back my messy hair.

My eyes were a bit puffy. I heard the door click open and I walked to my bed, a slight limp in my step. It was improving though, I could actually get around well now. I glanced over to my door as Zeke popped in my doorway. "Hey ri, breakfast is ready If you want to come down," he said, an encouraging smile on his face.

I saw his eyes wander to my battered legs and he grimaced a bit. "Uh- I'm okay, not really hungry."

"Ri, you've said that for the past two meals," he walked into my room now, coming to stand by me.

"Come on R- hey were you crying?" He asked, his brow furrowing in worry.

"No, just allergies," I said, giving my head a brief shake.

"Ri, talk to me. You know I'm here for you right? I don't like when you're so closed off. I just want to help babygirl," he told me, brushing back a piece of my hair.

I glanced up into his eyes, which held a pained yet loving look. I felt my eyes burn and i wrapped my arms around him, falling into his chest. His arms automatically wrapped around me, holding me to him. I felt his chest rise and fall against my cheek. I took a deep breath as I clung to him. His hand ran over the back of my head gently, stroking my hair. "It's okay Ri, I'm here. I'll always be here," he cooed.

"I'm sorry Ezi," I sniffled out.

"No Tris, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't protected you enough. I'm sorry I let this happen to you. You have absolutely no reason to be apologizing to me riri. You did nothing wrong. Remember that. You're my best friend babygirl and I'll love you until the day I'm gone."

I felt my heart break in my chest. It was agonizing to see him hurting. He didn't deserve the burden. He's the best brother I could've gotten and without him I'd be nothing.

"Ezi, you're the reason I'm as strong as I am. You've made me the person I am today. You've been my dad, brother, and best friend all in one and I wouldn't want it any other way. Without you I wouldn't be here, I love you Z," I said, still clinging to him, my head buried in his chest.

I glanced up to his chocolate eyes, which were now filled with thick tears. His lip gave a slight quiver. "I love you more then life itself," he mumbled before landing a kiss on the top of my head.

I pulled back after a few moments. My phone buzzed in my pocket and I pulled it out, reading the text.
Tobias- miss you baby can I come see you?

"Four?" Ezi asked.

"Yeah, I think he's going to come over," I explained.

I wrote back yes see you then ily

I put my phone in my sweatshirt pocket before turning to Zeke. "I'll meet you down there, I'm just gonna change."

"Okay, but get your ass down there and eat," he said, giving me a fatherly glance before heading downstairs.

I let out a sigh, letting my shoulders slouch. I took a seat in my white chair before running my hand on my cast, grimacing at the pain that was pounding in my head and arm. I sat for a few moments before going to my closest and struggling with to pull on a pair of Louis Vuitton joggers and a White crop top. I groaned, taking breaks between pulls. Doing things with a broken arm sucked, like a TON. I gave a huff before giving up on the pants, laying on my back on my floor with them half pulled up. A knock pounded and I whipped my head around. Tobias was standing in the closet door, observing me with his stormy eyes. I gave a futile pull at my pants and released a loud sigh. "Hey baby, you need some help?" He asked with a smirk on his lips.

I gave him a glare, "if it's not to much of a bother."

He leaned down before pulling me to my feet. I turned around, facing the mirror before trying to pull them again. He pressed against my back before gently taking the fabric and pulling it up above my hips. His hand gently took my chin before turning my to face him. His gentle lips brushed against mine briefly and his hands moved to tie my pants. I felt warmth spread in my stomach as I watched him. He was so gorgeous. Everything about him was so perfect. He loved me unconditionally, and I loved him the same. He finished tying my pants and took my face in his hand, his palm against my cheek. I leaned forward, planting a gentle kiss against his lips. His arms kept me pinned to him as he deepened the kiss. I melted at his touch. His hand made its way down my back before resting on my waist. His hand squeezed my hip and I felt cold seize me. My eyes seemed to go black and all I could see was Mark. He was in front of me, his hands on me. He tried slipping his hand into my pants and terror spread through my spine. I let out a yelp before pulling away, the hairs on my neck standing to a point. I heard a muffled voice boom, a recognizable voice. The voice snapped me back to reality and I now saw Tobias' face, which held a look of confusion. "Are you oka-"

"Yeah, I uh- just one second," I said, my voice a bit squeaky.

I turned, covering my eyes with my hands. I took a deep breath, which came out shakier then I intended. "Hey.... you ok tris? Did I-"

I cut him off, shaking my head, " no Toby. You didn't do anything wrong baby.  I'm so sorry, you didn't do anything wrong."

I took his face in my hands, tears blurring my vision. I felt them begin to spill over and I fell into his chest. "I'm so sorry-"

"Shhhhhhhh, I'm here my love, I'm here," he mumbled, his warm arms holding me to him.

"I didn't mean to- I just..... I saw him," I choked out.

"It's okay tris. I won't let him hurt you ever again. You're safe. I'm here," he purred, rubbing my back.

"I love you."

"I love you more."

"Not possible."