Divergent : Tris Pedrad

Chapter 29

I woke up to vibrant lights on my eyes. My eyes felt stiff from a long night of crying. I felt sick to my stomach. I shoved off my blankets and got to my bathroom as fast as possible before throwing up. Ugh, a hangover. Why did I have to drink? I pressed my back against the cold wall. I sighed and got myself to my feet, making my way to my bed. I crawled back in. I had no intention of leaving this bed for the next two weeks of Christmas break. Pathetic, but I couldn't bring myself to face anyone after last night. I grabbed my phone. More missed calls from him. More missed texts from him. This time also from Christina, Will, Mar, Lynn, Eddie, and Jack. I set my phone back down and wrapped the covers around me. There was a knock at my door and I groaned. "Go away!" I yelled.

It clicked open anyways and I groaned in annoyance. "Tris, come eat. There's breakfast," Zeke said.

"No," I snapped.

"Tris, please. Come eat," he pleaded.

"I'm not hungry," I said to him.

"Tris-" I cut him off.

"Please- just leave me alone," I cried into the pillow, tears coming to my eyes.

"No," he replied.

"Just go." I pleaded.

"Not until you tell me what happened last night," He said, sitting on my bed.

"Please don't," I pleaded, crying now.

"Tris- please," he said.

My phone buzzed and he snatched it away before I could pick it up. "Tell me now," he said.

"I can't remember most of th-the night. I drank too much. I lost him early in the party. I just remember seeing- seeing-........ a girl against him...... kissing him," I said, covering my face with my hands. 

He was absolutely furious. "I'm going to kill him," he said, much too quiet.

When Zeke was mad he yelled, when he was furious..... everyone is screwed. His voice was flat, void of emotions. His fists were clenched. "Zeke- no," I said.

"Tris, he hurt you. No one hurts you. That son of a bitch," he growled.

My phone buzzed in his hand, it was four again. Zeke ignored the call. I wrapped the covers around me and let the tears keep falling.

2 more days passed. I refused to leave my room. I hadn't eaten much of anything. I was laying in bed one afternoon, when the doorbell rang. I hauled myself from bed, leaving my room for the first time in 2 days. I was wearing some black joggers and a crop top. I slowly made my way down the stairs. I opened the door once I got to it.

Tobias.

"Oh-uh- what-" he stopped me.

He looked me up and down. I probably looked terrible. "Tris," he said.

"I-what - what are you oing here," I said, looking at the floor.

"You haven't been picking up the phone, or answering my texts. I came to make sure you were still alive," He said gently.

He reached out to grab me and I pulled away. "Shouldn't you be with your new girlfriend?" I asked.

"What? What the hell? What are you talking about?" He exclaimed.

Wow, what a great actor. "Cut the shit. I saw you kissing that girl at the party," I snapped, my eyes filling with tears.

"Tris- I wouldn't- tris I didn't! She kissed me. I didn't kiss back. I pushed her off! I'm so sorry," he said, pressing his palm to my cheek.

His touch felt perfect. It felt like him. The Tobias I know and love. The man I fell for. The man I thought I would marry. I loved him. I will always love him. He was my world. He was my everything. But I wasn't good enough. He needed more then just me. A guy like Tobias can't be satisfied with just one person. He's to pretty for that. He's to perfect for that. I loved him- I love him.I couldn't let him do this. "I-i think you should go," I said, tears falling down my face.

I tried shutting the door but he caught it with his foot. "Tris please! Listen to me! I would never do that. I love you more then anything. You are my world," he said.

I looked at him. Right in his eyes. Pain was laced in his features. I couldn't let him pull me back in. I wanted nothing more then to fall into his arms and forgive him. I wanted nothing more then to kiss his soft lips. I wanted nothing more then him. His story might be true. But I need time.  I shook my head, shutting the door the rest of the way. "Tris! Please! I love you!" I heard his voice boom.

I felt the tears fall faster and I felt the sobs choke me. I slid down the door. I choked on my cries. "I-I love -you," I cried. 

Tears flooded my face. I just wanted to be in his arms. I wanted to be with him. But I don't know anymore if that what he wants. 

ANOTHER CHAPTER DOWN! This was painful to write. Broke my heart :(. Something huge is about to happen in the next chapter tho, so stayed tuned. Better grab your popcorn cuz it's gonna be a good one. I'll try and write it by tonight!!! It should be up tonight or tomorrow.