Too Young

Chapter 20:Is This What They Call Love?

Is happiness truly easy to get?It might be but it's much more easier for it to disappear.I have too many questions that can't be answered or I refuse to ask the people who know the answer.Is this the happy feeling people call love or is it just another rotten fruit that's going to break you?Should you trust your heart or your brain when it comes to love?I don't know and frankly I don't care until now.No matter how hard I push back the feeling called love to the back of my mind it still comes back over and over and over again until I finally give in to be honest I'm not one of those people that would want love in their lives just to spice their life up.I don't want to fall in love with you or do I but I just deny it.Is this what they call love?A feeling where your mind just gets scrambled and your heart does the thinking?Is this....it?Is this love?

A loud noise woke me up and it was my alarm "First sleep after the radio station thing" I said getting up and shutting off my alarm and going downstairs to do my routine.After the radio station thing that happened a 2 weeks ago I haven't had enough sleep as I've been constantly staying awake for the whole night due to questions filling my mind up and for the first time I finally slept through one night without being woken up in the middle of the night or stay awake for the whole night."Jeez I still feel exhausted" I said stretching my arms and fixing my hair and preparing myself my coffee "Atleast I can get a jolt of energy from you" I said drinking my coffee and suddenly the doorbell rang.I got up and checked through the peephole to see who it was and it was Xandra."Morning" Xandra said as I opened the door "Why are you here?" I said "We gotta talk" she said "Come in then" I said before she came in "Take a seat and what do you want?" I said closing the door "I mean what do you want?Water,coffee,juice or something else?" I said "I don't want anything materialistic I just want your time" she said sitting down "Aight" I said sitting beside her "So what are we talking about?" I said "Your...actions and the constant no sleep whenever we meet for the school magazine" she said "Is something wrong?" she said "No nothing is wrong it's just that..." I said trying to think of a reason to explain why I have no sleep "It's because I have a piece to do!" I said "Yeah I have a piece to do" I said "I already asked Zachery if you have any activities to do and he said you had none.Come on Lee be honest with me" she said "Fine I...." I said "Say the truth" "I...." "Say the truth Lee!" "I was doing something for school advance study you know 'cause I mean I wanna atleast be in the achievers" I said smiling "You idiot" "But you already are though" she said "Maybe I want to aim higher" I said "Well...true you are competitive in a way" she said "Anyways I'm sorry for bothering you" she said standing up "It's fine you just care about me that's all" I said "Well don't forget meeting tomorrow and please have some rest" she said as she went out the door "I didn't lock it..." I said closing the door and locking in."Why didn't I just say the truth?" I said getting my coffee and sitting on the couch "Was I scared that she would say she didn't like me?Or was I scared that everything would become awkward when I said that?" I said drinking my coffee "Agh even something I like drinking doesn't calm me anymore" I said placing the mug down "Why are feelings so complicated" I asked myself as I laid on the couch "I should've told the truth" I said "Great another mistake I've done" I said closing my eyes to contemplate.

AN:Soo I really have no idea what to call the place Lee is in so I'll just call it Contemplation Zone.
Why does your own feeling have to be complicated?Can't it just be not complicated or just make it easy to understand.Why is she even concerned about me?Could it be that she likes me?No that's a giant leap of logic.She probably just wanted to repay we back when the radio thing happened when she freaked out.I mean what are the chances of her liking me back?It's like 0%.Lord why does this have to be complicated?Wait...It would be more fucking complicated if I said that I liked her hell the awkwardness could turn more than 100% and go past that.Shit everything could go wrong in a matter of days!

Back To Reality
"I can't confess!" I said going back to reality "Just push back the feelings!Just become an emotionless robot not caring about anything like before!" I said "But is keeping my feelings locked up the right thing to do in this situation?" I said "Or should I just say it?" I said "Aghh!" I said "You know what...I might as well just wait until 4th quarter to just tell her" I said "Yeah that seems good enough" I said "God I'm talking to myself too much" I said "Might as well just sleep through the whole day as I need it to get the rest I lost after the radio station thing" I said as I went up the stairs and suddenly my phone ringed "Again reminder everyone the meeting is being held at Xandra's place tomorrow.The meeting will start at 7:00 a.m." I said reading the text from Zachery at our group chat "Her place huh?" I said as I fell on my bed "Just wait for tomorrow" I said as my voice trailed off at the end of what I was saying and fell asleep.

The End Of Chapter 20
AN:This one is a bit short as it didn't even reach 1.5k words but I have a reason for that.I am working on a song which is basically a mashup of songs that would fit with the endings of Too Young that I have in mind but I'll take a while and I'm currently procrastinating a school work so great!Btw listen to Botalks as the songs I'm gonna have to mix together is by the artist and yeah.

PS:I want you guys to remember the questions "Is happiness truly easy to get?" and "Is this the happy feeling people call love or is it just another rotten fruit that's going to break you?" and "Should you trust your heart or your brain when it comes to love?" it's gonna be important for the endings of Too Young that's gonna probably be released next next week or maybe even the week after that.