My Desire - Daryl Dixon (1)

Talking With Helen

Chapter 52

After some time had past, I finally let Jason get back to Helen before I headed outside to clear my head. Everything was just too stressful and I needed some fresh air. Once I had got outside, I began to look around me and spotted the RV. I figured that Andrea was probably inside and that I should go and apologize to her for yesterday and so I began to walk towards it.

Once I had finally reached, I quickly headed inside and saw Andrea sitting down at the table.

"Hey," I said as I stood in the doorway.

"Hey," Andrea said with a smile.

"Can I come in for a minute?" I asked.

"Yeah, sure," Andrea answered.

"Thanks," I said before walking in and closing the door behind me.

After doing this, I walked over and sat down opposite Andrea before saying...

"So I wanted to apologize to you about yesterday. I didn't mean to slap you, I just- I was just hurt and I'm sorry," I apologized.

"You don't need to apologize. I was in the wrong. I shouldn't have left Beth alone, and I'm sorry about Caroline. I know how much she must have meant to you because it's the same way I felt about Amy. We're big sisters and our job is to protect them," Andrea explained as tears began to appear in my eyes.

Seeing this, Andrea put her hand out and placed it on mine while smiling and I smiled back.

"Thank you for understanding," I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.

"It's no problem," Andrea said.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked.

"Yeah, of course," Andrea answered.

"When Amy died, did you just feel like everything is too much?, like everything is just so overwhelming?" I asked.

"Yeah, I did. It's totally natural and with everything else that you have to deal with, it's totally understandable," Andrea said.

I smiled and nodded before getting up and saying...

"Thanks for the talk," I said as I wiped my tears.

"No problem," Andrea said.

"So we're good?" I questioned.

"We're good," Andrea agreed.

I then smiled before leaving the RV and heading back to the house. However, as I did this, Dale rushed over to me and said...

"Skye I need to talk to you," Dale said, causing me to stop walking.

"This about Randall?" I questioned.

"This is about doing the right thing and letting the boy live," Dale said.

"Look, I can't do this right now. I've got to much to deal with already," I said before beginning to walk off.

"So you're just gonna let some boy die because of the fact that you can't deal with it right now?" Dale questioned from behind me.

I then stopped and turned back to him before saying...

"Listen Dale, I have a lot on my plate right now and I can't deal with it okay? I don't want Randall to die okay? I don't but I have way too much to think about because in the matter of days I have been shot, nearly killed by my rapist stepdad, my sister has died, my other tried to kill herself and now I have just found out that my mum is dying, okay? So I'm sorry but I can't deal with this right now," I snapped.

"I'm so sorry Skye," Dale said sympathetically.

I then began to feel really bad before I said...

"Look, I'm sorry. I want to help but I just can't," I said.

"Please Skye, you can convince Rick as his old partner and I can't ask Shane because-" Dale said before I interrupted him.

"Because he killed Otis?" I questioned.

"He- he told you?" Dale questioned.

"No, I figured it out. When Shane came back he had the look my dad used to have when he was responsible for another's soldier's death, and his story is something that anyone would make up to cover their own tracks. Besides, I've known Shane for years and I know when something is up with him. Rick knows what happened as well, he just doesn't want to believe it," I explained before walking off back to the house.

Once I got back, I headed back upstairs to Helen's room and began to take care of her. After a while of doing this, Helen began to watch me carefully before she finally said...

"Skyler I-" Helen said before I interrupted her.

"Stop. I'm doing this for Jason, that's all. I don't want a mother-daughter talk, I just want to help you get better," I said.

"Please Skyler. Let me just get this out. I don't have long left and I just want to say something," Helen said.

"Fine," I said.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I should have been there for you. I should have been a mother and protected you. You're my beautiful girl and you deserved so much better. I love you so much sweetheart. You deserved a life where you could have been a little girl and enjoyed every little part of life. You deserved that and I'm sorry you didn't get that. I hope you can forgive me," Helen explained as she began to cry.

I felt more own tears fall down my cheeks before I quickly wiped them away and got up. Once I did this, I slowly walked over to the door, turned out the light and said...

"Try and get some sleep," I said.

I then left the room and closed the door behind me, leaving my mum alone in her bedroom to rest...