Gaya Ng Dati

Chapter 28

(A/N: If you want some feels while reading this chapter, play that video above.)

Talk

Nandito ako ngayon sa condo ni Lea, like what I've said kay Richard I will get Lea back and I'm here to make it real. Pauuwiin ko na siya, sasabihin ko sa kanya lahat ng pwedeng sabihin, gagawin ko lahat ng pwede kong gawin para mapauwi ko na siya. I want her back.

Kumatok ako sa pintuan ng tatlong beses, pumihit ang door knob at tuluyan na itong bumukas at iniluwa nito si Lea. Nagulat siya sa aking presensya at agad na isinara ang pinto ngunit ito ay aking napigilan.

"Babes let's talk."

"We have nothing to talk about."

"We have many things to talk about. And the first main thing is to get you back, babes umuwi ka na."

"I told you hindi ako uuwi ng bahay mo, Aga I need space."

"Pero okay naman tayo nung mga nakaraang araw diba? Anong nangyari?"

"You want to talk? Okay I'll give it to you, but there is no guarantee that I will come with you." Sabi niya at tumalikod sa akin, iniwan niyang bukas ang pinto at ako ay pumasok. Umupo kaming dalawa sa sofa sa may sala upang mag-usap.

"Like what I've said okay naman tayo, bakit kailangan ng space?"

"Aga ikaw lang ang okay, me I don't know kung okay ako. Lagi ko nalang iniisip ang kapakanan mo pero hindi ko alam na pati sarili ko napapabayaan ko na dahil sayo."

"That's why sumasama ka sa ibang lalaki?"

"Ayan, that's the main reason kung bakit ko umalis. Nagseselos ka nang walang dahilan, you keep on accusing me even though wala akong ginagawang masama. Aga they're just my friends, they're my high school friends and we are just having some chit chats." Sabi ni Lea habang ini-emphasize ang mga salitang 'just' at 'high school friends'

"Nawawalan ka na ng oras sa akin."

"Pero mas nawawalan na ako ng oras sa sarili ko."

"Hindi naman natin to pinag-aawayan dati."

"Dahil hindi mo naman ako inaakusahan dati, may tiwala ka sa akin dati. Ngayon ba meron parin?"

"Lei I have trust on you pero sa kanila wala."

"If you trust me dapat may tiwala ka din sa kanila, dahil ako may tiwala ako sa kanila because they are my friends. And if you really love me hahayaan mo ako na kasama sila, huwag mo akong ilalayo sa kanila dahil sila ang kasama ko nung mga panahong wala ka.

They are the one who's supporting me, cheering my name every time I have musical play character to portray, whenever I have doubt sa sarili ko they are there to lift me up, they are there to make me smile every time I feel bad about myself and every time I feel alone.

Aga hindi sa lahat ng oras kasama mo ako dahil hindi sa iyo umiikot ang mundo ko." Ang sakit ng sinabi niya pero alam mo yung pinakamasakit, yung huli niyang sinabi pero totoo naman hindi ko dapat siya binigyan ng hangganan, ng limitasyon.

"Dawn told me everything." Dagdag pa niya.

"Everything?"

"Richard told Dawn and Dawn told me what happened in the bar." I gulped when she said that, kinakabahan ako, alam niya ang lahat?

"Hindi pwede ang uminom Aga, you know that, it's bad for your health. But you know what hurt me the most? Yung nakipaghalikan ka sa ibang babae." Sabi niya habang natulo na ang mga luha sa kanyang mata.

"Babes I will explain."

"Aga I'm still your fiancé, hindi porket humingi ako ng space sayo pwede ka nang magloko. Sabi pa nila sinabi mo raw na I'm cheating kaya mo iyon nagawa."

"Babes"

"So pinagmukha mo talaga akong masama? You really told them that I'm cheating, do you have any evidence? Di ba wala, Aga nakita mo lang na hinatid ako sa bahay, yun lang tapos sinabi mo na meron akong iba? Anong gusto mo na huwag akong ihatid para may mangyari sa aking masama?" Sabi niya nang medyo pasigaw.

"You are the one who cheated Aga, not me." She added.

"Because I don't have you anymore."

"And not because I'm not on your side ay hahalik ka na ng ibang babae. Hindi mo ba alam kung gaano ako nasasaktan? Kung gaano ko gustong bumalik sayo, kung gaano ko gusto na kuhain ka sa babaeng iyon at sabihin sa kanya na akin ka lang?"

"Then why did you not do it?"

"Because you are not the Aga I have loved, babalik ako sayo tapos ano, you will be jealous and accused me again that I'm cheating? Aga nakakasawa, nakakasakal, nakakasakit."

"Babes let's give us another shot please, I will not screw up this time." I said and kneel down in front of her asking for her forgiveness.

LEA:

"Babes let's give us another shot please, I will not screw up this time." He kneels down in front of me, asking me to forgive him.

"Tumayo ka diyan." I said in between my sobs.

"I will just stand up kapag sinabi mong babalik ka na sa akin."

"You have to stand up now; no one is coming back to you until you realize that I don't deserve any of your accusations."

"Babes"

"Stand up kung ayaw mong tuluyang mawala ako sa'yo, I need space Aga, give that to me." Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakaluhod, tumingin sa akin, dahan-dahang tumalikod at tuluyang umalis. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil ayokong makita siyang naiyak, paninindigan ko ang desisyon ko dahil alam kong ito lang ang paraan para matuto siya, para matuto kaming dalawa.

I cried a lot, I can't eat properly; I'm just here in my sala set listening to the music that hurt me a lot. I maybe masochist in your eyes but this is one way of letting the pain go.

♪ Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me.

You need someone

Willing to give their hearts and soul to you

Promise you forever

Baby that's something I can't do

Oh I can say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you needed

I love you goodbye ♪

"I may give the both of us space now, but I will never let you go babes. You are mine." My eyes are swollen; I'm tired of crying so I already stopped, that was the last line I said before heading to sleep.