The Boy in the Rain//Klance

13. Lance

"Luis! Chloe! Guess what I got!" I raise the brown bag in the air as I stand over my two little siblings. Chloe and Luis were watching something on our small T.V but they quickly look at me when they hear me voice.

They both stand up and screech, "What did you get?" I laugh and place the bag on the table, "See for yourselves." The two open the bag and pick out what they want. Chloe gets a muffin and Luis gets a cookie. They sit down at the dinner table and start munching on what will probably be their dinner. It's sad but at least it's something.

"Thank you Lancey Lance!" Luis says as he licks melted chocolate chips from his fingers. (How did he get so messy already-) "Yeah this is awesome thanks Lance!" Chloe says with a mouthful of muffin.

"Yeah just save some for everyone else okay? But don't worry I won't tell mom if you guys-accidentally-" I wink at both of them, "Eat another of whatever you want." Both kids light up with joy and I slip away with a smile on my face.

The house is silent due to it only being Chloe, Luis and sleeping Danny, Nina and Abuelita at home. Veronica is hanging out with friends, Mama is working extra hours tonight so she won't be home until late in the night.

I flop on my small bed and wish I hadn't come home today at all. At least I was able to feed the kids.

My stomach rumbles and I want to punch something.

The friends you think you made today won't last. They'll hate you. They hate you.

I turn over the days events in my head. I don't think I did anything to make them hate me?

(Earlier Today)

I set the brown bag down on the coffee table in between our couches. There are two love seats across from each other with a coffee table in the middle. Hunk and Pidge sit across from Keith and I.

I sip from a coffee cup. I got a vanilla frappe. Keith got his usual black coffee, Pidge got green tea and Hunk got a vanilla Frappuccino too! He said it was his favorite and I high-fived him which earned me a glare from Keith.

"What's up with Keith?" Is the only thought that kept popping up in my mind.

"So Lance...Where ya from?" Pidge tries to start up a conversation, "I'm actually from the south side of town I've lived here all my life." Pidges mouth forms a small "O".

"Lance what's your family like?" I see Keith's head pick up in interest. I don't talk about my family much.

"Well I have five siblings. The oldest has an infant daughter and my Abuelita lives with us. We all pack into our small home." They all stare at me and I'm used to this. When I used to tell my "friends" about my home life they would all be surprised and then judge me.

"That sounds really crazy. How do your parents make money for all those people to live off of?" Hunk asks me with sudden interest. I laugh awkwardly, "Actually it's just my Mama." My dad has been out of the picture for two years now and I hope to never see him again.

There's a silence that falls over us and I think I said the wrong thing. Suddenly Keith scoots towards me and pulls me into a hug. It's obviously nothing a deep as it would be if we were alone but it makes me feel a little better.

A little.

Hunk and Pidge both say how sorry they are and I feel Keith give my hand a quick squeeze before he lets it go. Pidge and Hunk don't notice.

I'm a little angry at Keith. He said we were friends. He introduced me as just a friend. Didn't I tell him I wanted to try us out? Didn't he agree? Didn't we kiss? Multiple times. I didn't know that friends did those sort of things now. Maybe it's because I haven't had a friend in so long?

I am, to say the least, furious.

I realize that in my anger I zoned out because Keith is tapping me on the shoulder. "What?" I look towards him. His face is soft and he looks at me with a smile, "Pidge asked you something." I look away from Keith without returning his smile. I see his brows furrow in confusion and I watch how his soft expression is replaced by his calm mask.

I cringe inwardly, knowing I hurt his feelings. Though he hurt mine so now were even. Still it didn't feel right in my stomach.

Or maybe that's just because you haven't thrown up in a while? Ready to go at it again? How about now? Just slip away to the bathroom—

"Shut up!" I say out loud. Keith, Pidge and Hunk all stare at me. Pidge was in the middle of saying something and I completely cut her off. Great now she thinks I wanted her to shut up when I really wanted it to shut up.

"I'm so sorry! I was spacing out! Please continue!" I apologize and Pidge looks skeptical but keeps talking. "As I was saying- Lance why do you sit with the generals at lunch at school?" Hunk and Keith are obviously interested as well because Hunk nods and Keith says, "Yeah I've been wondering that too."

I don't even really know why either. "I didn't know anyone and you guys know how crazy and scary lunch is when you're the new kid right? I just looked for anyone that would me in." They nod to this and Keith adds, "Well we are letting you in so sit with us on Monday under the tree." I smile at that, "I would love that. You guys are a lot cooler than the generals. They talk about so many people at lunch! It's really rude what they say..." I trail off remembering all the bad things they said about Keith.

"Well look at us now." I thought to myself.

(Present Time)

I decide to text Keith before I head to bed.

Hey Keith
Keef: Hi
Why were you so upset today?
Keef: I could ask you the same
No need to be aggressive, please answer my question.
Are you mad at me?
Keef: Not really
?Explanation please?
Keef: I don't know...you just seemed a lot more friendly and smiley with Pidge and Hunk today than you ever are with me.

I sigh and facepalm. This is what he was upset about? He was jealous?

Keith, the only reason I seem more friendly and smiley with them is because with you I don't like to fake smile. Today I smiled just because I knew that's what you do when you meet new people. With you it's different, I don't have to pretend.

After I send it I feel my heart clench in my chest. Was that the right thing to say? No...I already knew what'd say.

Wow Lance. You really are sad. Pathetic. Weak. Selfish. Annoying. Freak. Fag.

Keef: wow. Lance I didn't know you felt that way. I'm sorry to hear you have to take but I'm glad you feel comfortable around me. Let's hangout tomorrow okay? I'm going to go to bed

Yeah we can hangout tomorrow. Night Keith. We need to talk tomorrow about something.

I send a goodnight and throw my phone across the room. Why couldn't I tell him I was angry too? Why do I have to keep these feelings a secret. Why do I feel like Keith and I aren't even that close? It feels like we don't know what we're doing.

Is it because we don't know what love is?

Sorry for such a boring chapter! I hope this gave you a little more insight on Lance's voice in his head. If the texting between people is confusing just tell me in the comments and I can change it up a bit! Have a great day/night and as always thanks for reading!