The Boy in the Rain//Klance

28. Yorak

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So I felt like I should give you guys some humor before I c r u s h your hearts

I don't know why I kissed him. I just did.

He pulls back with wide blue eyes. His eyes are red from crying and he still has tears streaming down his face. I hold his shoulders, "Lance. Move in with me." He looks away, somewhere over my shoulders. "What about your parents?"

"They won't care." It's true. My father is always away and my stepmother doesn't have a say (ooh that rhymed oh shit) in anything that goes on in the house.

The taller boy looks at me with such sadness that all I want to do is hug him. So I do.

I pull him in and I press my face into his chest. I clench his jacket and pull it around me. For a minute he's surprised but then he wraps his arms around me. I don't know how a person could be this warm but he is.

"Keith. I'm sorry." I don't pull away I just talk into his warm chest, "Why?" Lance hugs me tightly, "I'm so selfish." His voice breaks and I feel him shaking in my arms. Now I wish I could be as tall as him and hold him close.

"No you're not. Why would you say that?" Lance is sobbing now, quietly though. He's hiccuping and breathing shallow. "I have Allura, I don't need anything else." I'm about to say something but he speaks again, "But I want someone else."

I feel myself freeze. Is he talking about me?

"Keith I hate myself so much." I want to pull away to look him in the eyes but he keeps me against his chest. "Don't look at me. Please."

"I can't deal with any of this. I'm so tired, all the time. I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of myself and I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep forever. Why can't I do that? Why do I need to worry about feeding my family or protecting them from our father? Why do I need to worry about what college I can get into if I don't EVEN WANT TO FUCKING LIVE TO SEE MY FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE?" Lance is screaming and I want to cry. He's sobbing loudly and I hope no one hears, for his sake.

"Lance please-"

"Keith I can't tell you that I love you. I'm selfish to even think that way, much less actually go after you. Just promise me- one thing."

I don't know what to say. He loves me? But he can't? "What do you need me to promise you?"

Lance's chest has frozen, only slight movements of his breathing. He's calmed down. He's not crying.

"Don't ever tell me you love me."

"Don't ever fall in love with me."

Why does he think this way of himself? Why doesn't he know it's okay to be selfish?

"Lance it's okay to be self-"

"Promise me. Keith promise me." Lance's voice is cold and hard. So unlike his warm and soft chest.

I start crying.

"I promise."

Sorry for such a short chapter I just figured this was the best place to leave it off so it would break your hearts. Know that I love you all like children but I had to do this for the sake of the story- it's all right to be mad at me. XD have a good day