The Boy in the Rain//Klance

51. Lance

I have to blink my eyes rapidly to adjust to the bright lights.

Wait...Bright lights? Am I dead?

"Lance! You're awake!" I almost frown at the realization, no I'm not dead. But I can't help feel a little releived. I squint my eyes and I see Danny and Veronica on either side of me. Chloe was sleeping on a couch with Luis and Marco on both her sides. "I'm awake...What happened?" I ask both my older siblings. Veronica visibly winces and she holds my hand a little tighter. Danny seems to grow stone cold, "We're supposed to use different words but Lance- you attempted suicide." I inhale sharply. Yes I remember.

I remember Keith finding me in the park. I remember him look frightened and desperately reaching out to stop me. I remember the flick of the lighter when I dropped it. I remember Keith jumping through and ripping off his jacket to cover me. I remember him telling me he loved me. I remember blacking out while the flames licked at us.

"Is Keith okay?" I ask, worriedly looking between Veronica and Danny. Danny softens his gaze and Veronica looks on the verge of tears. My heart rate jumps through the roof. Panic sets in my chest and I feel like crying. I repeat myself, "Is Keith okay? Where is he?" I can hear my voice reach a high shrill. Veronica drops my hand and I hold my own head with my hand. "Shit shit shit no- he's not dead. He's not dead!" Veronica grips my shoulders, "Lance. Calm down he's not dead." Danny nods and holds my hand tightly, "He's not dead...just in a worse condition than you are." I bite back the joy, he's not dead. I do worry though. He's in a worse state than I am?

"When can I see him?" I ask. "I don't know. You'll need time to rest and recuperate and then you have to go to a mental hospital..." Veronica trails off. I feel my stomach drop. "Mental hospital?" Danny nods with remorse. "It'll be okay. It shouldn't be too long." Veronica eyes him, "Okay it's a little long but you'll get through it, we'll visit you all the time." I feel my panic set in again. This isn't what I wanted, I wanted to end the pain not go somewhere where analyze it.

Just then a nurse walks in. She's got long blonde hair and freckles. "I see you've woken up. We're going to have to do some tests but first tell me, how do you feel? Do you want me to get anything for you?" I shake my head, "I'm fine. But I would like to know about um- Keith Kogane. He was with me when I um- tried to commit. Is he okay?" The nurse sighs and walk over to me. With a soft smile she say, "Sweety, I'm not allowed to talk about other patients." My face falls, "But- He's okay. Don't worry right now." I exhale a long sigh of relief. I can't imagine how it would feel if he was in a critical condition. Th

The nurse then holds one of my bandaged arms gently, Danny and Veronica watching carefully, "Honey you've got burns everywhere. Let me look at your arms please." I nod and watch as she slowly unwraps the bandages. I wince when I see the mutilated skin. Why did I choose fire? Now these scars will be with me to remind me of this. "You've got some on your legs too honey but honestly this isn't as bad as it looks." I nod but gulp heavily. If this is how I look I wonder how Keith is.

She starts examining the other arm and nodding to herself. She writes in her on her clipboard and then walks to the door. "The doctor should be here soon. Are your parents here?" I shake my head slowly and the nurse looks confused. I'm confused too, I at least thought my Mama would be here. "I am one of hi guardians, I'm legally allowed to sign for him in place of our parents." Danny speaks up and then nurse looks at him surprised. "Really? But you're so young!" Danny blushes slightly and scratches the back of his head, "Thank you I'm twenty." The nurse smiles and waves. Before she leaves she whispers slightly, "I'm twenty three." Then she skips out.

"Wow. Danny. I'm in the hospital and you're flirting with the nurse." Danny laughs at that, "Sorry! I didn't mean to!" I chuckle lowly, trying not to hurt my rib cage. "I'm just joking. Go after her she's cute and nice." Danny nods, "I think I will." I smile. At least his love life is simple and not as confusing as mine.

Speaking of love life....

Veronica speaks up, "Allura is in the waiting room. She's been coming in here for days now. She's been waiting for you to wake up." I gulp. "Wait how long have I been asleep?" Danny pipes in, "Only two days kid don't worry." Then Veronica asks, "Do you want me to get Allura?" I consider that for a minute. Do I want to see Allura now?

"Sure. Will you all leave the room please?" Danny scoffs, "Don't get freaky in the hospital room kid. Chill out." I scowl, "We don't do that Danny. Anyway get your asses out of here." Danny chuckles as Veronica gently wakes up Chloe and the boys. They all look happy to see me awake and I can practically see Chloe's eagerness to jump out of Ver's arms and run to me. But she's held back and forced out of the room. I feel bad for sending them away, but I'd like privacy with Allura.

What am I even going to tell her?

Do I break up with her? I haven't been so faithful...Do I tell her what happened with Keith? No. I can't do that. That would ruin everything. But you've already ruined everything Lance. I gulp and nod to myself. In the empty room I start to get anxious. I tap my numb fingers on the sides of my bed. The beat gets faster and faster as I get more and more anxious.

Then the door opens.

"Lance?"