Confessions

4 "Twin brother"

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Twin brother

Hunyo na, panahon ng tag-ulan. Since night shift ang sched. ko, 9:00 ang uwian namin. Paglabas ko ng gate, ramdam ko na agad ang malamig na hangin dala ng malakas na ulan.  May bagyo pa ata, I waited for jeep to arrive for almost 30 mins. already, pero wala pa ring dumadaan. Pag inabot ka nga naman ng kamalasan oh. Pagod na pagod na ako that time at gusto ko na talagang matulog, so I have no choice left but to ride a bus. Since then, I really hate riding a bus, it cause me dizziness and headache. But, I lost my patience waiting, kaya nung may dumaan na bus, sumakay na ako. I took the leap of faith. Siksikan nung time na yun dahil rush hour, standing nanaman. Buti na lang, may bumaba na sa isang kanto at dahil malapit ako sa bakanteng upuan, I took the vacant seat then I close my eyes. Habang nasakalagitnaan ng pagbabiyahe, nagsimula na ngang mag-umpisa ang ikinakatakot ko. Umiikot yung sikmura ko na parang may gustong kumawala sa bibig ko. That familiar feeling gives a sudden chill on my entire body. I tried to calm myself and relax *exhale and inhale strategy* but it didn't help. Gusto na talagang lumabas nung nasa lalamunan ko, parang kinakalaykay yung kalamnan ko. Nagmamadali kong hinanap yung plastic na pinaglagyan ng lunchbox ko, nasagi ko pa si kuyang natutulog na may cap at bahagyang nakayuko, nagising nga ata. Sakto namang pagtangad niya ay siya namang pagsuka ko. I feel ashamed because they are all eyeing me. Daig ko pa ang bata kung magsuka. Then  suddenly the guy beside me, handed me his handkerchief and a piece of candy.
'Here, take it'
Nagpasalamat ako sayo *insert pabebe tone*
Then you say welcome and the conversation went on. You even ask me, kung bakit ako sumakay ng bus kung nahihilo lang din ako.
I tell you the whole story, then kwinento ko pa yung childhood memory ko tungkol sa bus. Wala kaming dala ni mama na plastic nun, kaya wala akong choice kundi sumuka sa labas ng bintana. Pero dahil sa sobrang lakas ng hangin, bumalik sa amin ni mama yung ibang naisuka ko, and worst sa mukha pa, diring-diri kami that time.
Tawang-tawa ka naman sa kuwento ko, halos sumakit na yung tiyan mo kakatawa.
I was starstrucked with your smile. Infairness ah, ang puti ng ngipin mo pang commercial ng toothpaste. Mas lalo kang gumagwapo, kamukha mo si Tom Rodriguez, mas bata lang ng unti.
Ang lalim ng mata mo, tapos itim na itim. I ask you kung may lahi ka, you nodded,
sabi mo 'half german, half Shepherd', ako naman ang tumawa haha.
You have a great sense of humor and a funny one too. You pulled a lot of corny jokes. At dahil mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko, tawang-tawa naman si ako, may kasama pang luha, overjoy lang ang peg.
I noticed that I'm closed to my destination, so I bid my farewell.
You asked for my #, ang cute mo nga ng time na yun eh with matching kamot pa sa ulo yung tinanong mo ako ng
'Can I get your number?'.
Sabi ko naman 'edi, wala na akong number pag kinuha mo'. Pero siyempre di na ako nagpakipot pa, binigay ko rin naman. Pa-chicks pa ba eh pafa ka na nga?
"I have a lot of fun talking to you, see you when I see you"
My last line before I walk down outside the bus. You gave your sweetest smile then say goodbye.

"Hi, this is John, can I ask you for a date. Meet me at the coffeeshop (location), exactly 3:00 pm today.  Hope to see you there"
From: unknown number
I know that its you, dahil ikaw pa lang naman ang pinagbigyan ko ng number na yun then naka embedded pa sa panyo mo yung name na 'John'.
I didn't hesitate to go there, at exactly 3:00 pm andun na ako sa meeting place natin. Then there you are, wearing a black polo shirt na bumagay sa maputing kutis mo. I walk slowly towards you, you were smiling widely while waving your hands.
Feeling ko nag-slowmo lahat, na parang tayong dalawa lang. Totoo pala yun akala ko kasi sa telenovela lang yun nangyayari.
"Hi, its nice to see you again, miss?"
sabay lahad ng kamay mo, 
"Lianne"
inabot ko naman ang kamay ko.
I feel the sparks between us, well not literally but it feels like I had butterfly-in-my-stomach, I giggled because of that.
You said that you wanted to take it seriously,
You want a formal relationship not only a casual dating.
You are a straightforward person, and matured enough to handle relationships.
Tapos ka na palang mag-aral, you are currently managing your parent's business.
Pero nakakabilib lang na NGSB ka pa. At first I didn't believe, sa guwapo mo ba namang iyan, for sure madaming nanghahabol sayo. I asked you why.
Then your explanation was amazing,
"I want to settle for a person who can make my heart beat's fast for a lifetime, I want to set morally upright example for my future children, not a badass one. Relationships should last forever not just for the meantime. Its a serious matter that only real man can understand, we shouldn't look for the right person, because in God's will and perfect timing he will give that person when you're finally ready to settle down.
'Slow clap for you, pang miss-universe ang sagot mo, sali ka kaya dun baka' mauwi mo ang korona'. Pagbibiro ko
You just laughed then stare at me intently
"Pero sa tingin ko binigay na nga siya sa akin" you added
I laughed awkwardly, I'm not dumb to understand that you are reffering to me, hindi naman sa assuming ako, slight lang haha.
I changed the topic, I ask you kung mahalaga ba ang virginity ng isang  babae.
"Of course it is, virginity really matters, its God's precious gift to all woman, you should give it to the person who deserves that, but for some instances, it doesn't really matter. There's a lot of person out there whom they are just a victim of wickedness and cruelness of others, mga taong halang ang kaluluwa na nagawa pang mang-rape para sa sariling kaligayahan. Its a serious case that we really need to eradicate."
Ako:......... *speechless*
Bukod sa sense of humor mo, malalim ka rin pa lang mag-isip, at that very young age, I'm pretty sure that you will achieve a lot of things especially when your heart wanted it.
Sari-saring bagay pa ang napagkuwentuhan natin parang tindahan lang ni Aling Nena, sari-sari ang laman. Pumunta tayo sa arcade after that, shooter ka pala sa basketball ah tapos yung panghuhuli ng fish ang galing mo doon. Kaso nga lang wala tayong nakuhang teddy bear, everytime kasi na maiaangat mo na, bigla na lang mahuhulog, may daya ata yon. Then we go to ktv room, we sing together, and I admit na hindi ganun kagandahan ang Boses mo, at hindi naman sa pagmamayabang *ehem* *ehem* may say naman ang boses ko haha. Pero nakakainis lang na dalawang beses ka nakakuha ng 100 na score while ako hanggang 98 lang, pati ata karaoke nagka-crush sayo.
Nag bumpcar din tayo, di mo naman sinabi na expert ka doon, ako naman parang tangang sigaw ng sigaw kasi kala ko mabubunggo mo na yung Ibang car, tawa ka naman ng tawa sa reaksyon ko. After that, pinapalit na natin yung tickets na nakuha natin. Sa sobrang dami (sarcastic),  meron tayong limang candy (frutos ata). Dalawa sayo, tatlo sa akin. Kumain tayo sa Mang-inasal, (advertising) naka tatlong rice tayo together at halos maimpatso na. Di na nga tayo makatayo haha.
We ride a jeep, pero dahil puno na sumabit ka na lang. Naiinis nga ako kasi agaw-atensyon ka eh. Parang nagseselos ako na ewan nung tumitingin sila ng malagkit sayo.
Hinatid mo ako sa bahay namin, then you said the words I've been waiting to hear from you.
"Hindi ko na patatagalin to, can I court you? No, let me rephrase it, I will court you wether you like it or not. I promise to never hurt you. In case you reject me, I'll accept it and I'll be a man to stand on the consequences of loving you."
Hindi ako makakibo, sa sobrang tuwa ko I give you a peck of kiss on your cheeks. We're both shocked pero kalaunan ay itinawa na lang natin.
I can't sleep that night, nagpagulong-gulong ako sa kama dahil sa tuwa, kilig at saya. Until  my phone beep,
'one message received'
From: John my loves
"Sleep tight my love, I enjoy this day. See you tomorrow, pahinga ka na ah. Mamahalin pa kita."
I can hear your voice plays on my head while I'm reading your message. At nang dahil doon mas lalo akong hindi nakatulog.