Confessions

95 "I fell in love with a UST Engineer"

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I FELL IN LOVE WITH A UST ENGINEER

Let's call him C2 Red.(Lol) Maybe by this way, if he reads this, sana malaman niyang sya yung tinutukoy ko.

Yes, I am in a relationship, for 8 happy years. Yes, he is also in a relationship, for 3 years. We met at work, actually wala pang 1 year since we became workmates.
The first time I saw him, iba na sa feeling. I dont know why there were butterflies in my stomach noong pinakilala na sya ng boss ko. All I thought was nakakakaba lang
siguro? Or maybe I was expecting workmates na hindi madaling pakisamahan since this is my first job. Days and weeks passed by, there were always laughthers and smiles
everytime na nagkakakwentuhan kami. I felt comfortable with him. Dumating pa sa point na nag sshare kami sa isa't isa ng problems with our partners. Nag oopen up sya
sakin and ganun din ako sa kanya. I felt really comfortable kasi nakkwento ko sakanya yung mga hindi ko nakkwento sa BF ko. Masaya ako kahit walang ka kwenta kwenta
yung mga kwento nya. Masarap syang kakwentuhan, may sense kausap, and we have the same wavelengths kumbaga. Until lagi na kami sabay pumasok and umuwe from work, I
don't know if there's something wrong dun kasi we have the same route naman going to work. Until one night pauwi kami, he held my hand, hindi ako pumalag. I know mali
because we are both in a relationship. Pero something felt right. Bakit masaya ako? I don't really know. Every single day ganun na kami, sabay lagi pumasok and umuwi
and doon kami nagkakaroon ng deep conversations, doon kami lalong naging close. BTW our partners doesnt know this kasi they are both kinda strict. Doon kami medyo
nagkakasundo because we have the same problems with our partners.

One day, he was doing something at work. Nakipagpustahan sya sakin bigla na if he finished what he's doing at work, i'll kiss him in the cheeks pero kapag hindi niya
natapos he'll be the one to kiss me daw. Sabi ko naman sige lang since sanay naman ako sa mga ganung pakulo niya. It's normal for him to speak that way kasi. Then it
happened, akala ko talaga biro lang. Lumabas yung ibang ka workmates namin then bigla niyang sinabing he lost. Then he kissed me. That's where it all started. Nasanay
kaming laging ganun ang situation. Everyday it becomes deeper and deeper. Holding hands, yakap sa dilim, FK here and there. That was our everyday routine. Sobrang
mali but it felt so right talaga. Plus the fact na masaya talaga siyang kasama. In short, naging mas naging masaya ako sa kanya kaysa sa BF ko. I felt bored with my BF.
Lagi nalang siya gumagawa ng dahilan para mag away kami, he was kinda childish and immature kasi.

Months passed by, tuloy tuloy padin kami sa ganung situation. Again, I know this is so wrong but umabot pa kami sa point ng tikiman. Naging kabit kami ng isat isa. I
don't know if that's normal for him since he's an engineer from UST (lol dont get me wrong but as far as I know typical na yung ganun sa kanila haha sorry guys d naman
lahat ihhh). But for me, hindi talaga ako sanay sa mga fling shit na ganito. I never had a fling outside of my relationship or even before my relationship until now.
To cut the story, hindi ako marunong lumandi hahahhhaha until eto nga. Nadale ng fuccboi.

Until it all ended, something came up and natigil lahat. (I'll not put into details nalang para safe hahaha)

Now things got so awkward. He left me hanging. Yes he still does those stupid jokes but it's all different now. Yes sabay padin kami umuuwi but I dont know why hindi
ko kayang sabihin sa kanya na na fall nako sa kanya. I'm inlove with him. I'm inlove with him so bad. So bad. lol.

I know all of you are going to judge me sa pag patol for a different guy while I'm currently in a relationship. Sorry tao lang nagkakamali din, nagmamahal lang. I
know naisip nyo na "just end the relationship than cheat". I already thought of that. Nakipag break nadin ako before sa BF ko not because of this guy but because of
our toxic relationship. Kaso lang nagkakabalikan padin kami. Oo sobrang loyal ng BF ko sakin. But it's not all about loyalty. Naging dry na yung relationship namin.
Sobrang higpit niya sakin, nakakasakal na siya. There were so many restrictions. Ang daming bawal sakanya. I dont even know paano ko natiis yun for 8 years. Yes I love
him, I love him nalang because of the 8 years but not because of our relationship. Oo naisip ko din si ate gurl niyo (GF niya) but the way na ikwento nya yung ugali ni
ate gurl, I think he deserves a better one.

Actually, this is really for you "C2 Red". I am willing to give up my 8 year relationship for you.

I don't care what your reaction will be, or kung wala lang talaga sayo yung mga pinag gagagawa natin. Ang importante lang naman, bago ka man lang umalis, malaman mo.

Ganito pala talaga kapag tinamaan ka. Kahit sobrang mali ng lahat ipipilit mo padin. Kahit lahat na ng qualities na ayaw ko sa lalaki nasayo, nagustuhan padin kita.
Fuccboi ka, nagyoyosi ka. I had the right love at the wrong time, at the wrong guy. Oh diba cheness. Kung napaaga lang yung dating mo sa buhay ko ng 8 years edi sana
ok na.

Kung mabasa mo to' fishball naman ulit tayo 😉

Paki tag na lahat ng UST Engineer na kilala niyo 🙂

Tanga na kung tanga pero mahal na kita.

-C2 Yellow