When You Need Me (Larry/Ziam)

Confession

**Trigger Warning: Mentions depression and self-harm/cutting**
Chapter Text

[1:04am]
Incoming Call From: Zayn
Zayn: "What's wrong Louis?"
Louis: "I'm having a bad night. I can't sleep. My mind keeps racing with bad thoughts and I can't make them go away."
Zayn: "What kind of bad thoughts?"
Louis: "Depressing thoughts."
Zayn: "Does this happen a lot?"
Louis: "Almost every night."
Zayn: "How do you usually stop the bad thoughts?"
Louis:"...I don't want to talk about that."
Zayn: "I think it would help if you did though."
Louis:"Maybe."
Zayn: "How do you handle the bad thoughts Louis?"
Louis: "Promise you won't be mad?"
Zayn: "Louis, you're worrying me."
Louis: "Promise? I don't want you to be disappointed."
Zayn: "I promise. You can tell me it's okay."
Louis: "Sometimes to deal with it I hurt myself. It's no big deal though. Please don't worry."
Zayn: "What do you mean you hurt yourself?."
Louis: "I cut myself."
Zayn: "Louis. I had no idea."
Louis: (crying) "I know it's bad but it helps even if only for a few minutes."
Zayn: "It doesn't help in the long run Louis, it's not worth it."
Louis: "You think I don't know that, Zayn? That's like if I told you smoking was bad for you. You obviously know that, but you don't care. I have to do it. I don't have any other way to cope."
Zayn: "Lou, how long have you been cutting?"
Louis: "A month."
Zayn: "How has nobody noticed?"
Louis: "I'm good at hiding it. I don't cut where anyone will see."
Zayn: "Louis I think you should get help. This isn't something to treat lightly. Am I the only one who knows?"
Louis: "Liam knows. He promised not to tell. I need you to promise the same. And even though Liam knows, you can't talk to him about it. Promise."
Zayn: "Only if you get help Louis. Will you do that for me?"
Louis: "I'm fine Zayn, I don't need help."
Zayn: "Louis if you don't get help, I will tell someone who will get it for you."
Louis: "Fine! I'll talk to someone."
Zayn: "Okay, then I promise not to tell anyone. You better keep your word though."
Louis: "Zayn?"
Zayn: "Yes?"
Louis: "Thanks."
Zayn: "For what?"
Louis: "Just for calling me. I really needed it right now."
Zayn: "Of course Lou, I love you. Go to sleep, you'll feel a little better in the morning."
Louis: "I love you too, Z. Goodnight."
[1:37am]
Call Ended