Life as a Basic White Girl

Rule #18

LIFE

Today has been the absolute worst day you guys. This week for me IS SO BUSY AND YET MY CAR IS IN THE SHOP FOR INSPECTION. It is also the eight years anniversary of One Direction so yeah, I am kind of happy but I was up until 3am watching the 1DHQ tweet things and we all expected something to happen overnight (like them releasing the Infinity mv) BUT THEY DID NOT.

THEN MY BROTHER WOKE ME UP THIS MORNING.

AND MY DAD HAS NOW COME INTO MY ROOM TO TELL ME THAT MY CAR

needs

$1400-$2000 in repairs. And then he continued to remind me about how broke I was. I know I am broke. Trust me, I would rather be working. But this summer was difficult. Between my calc course and all I didn't get to work as much as I would have liked to. SO I am grinding from here on out.

I also have a playing audition this week and meet the band day which I am 100 percent unprepared for.

ALSO I just got word from my mom that my uncle is in the hospital in critical condition.

idk guys.

Do you ever just feel like a failure? Like what if I never become a broadcaster and I end up poor for the rest of my life?

What if I never meet Harry Styles?

Will my dad ever be proud of me?

I just feel like I am sinking, but not doing anything to cause the sinking. And the deeper the hole gets, the harder it is to climb out.

Just.. like I am failing and let everyone down.

Life would be so much easier if I had money.