Life as a Basic White Girl

The Struggles of an Ambitious Woman

*coughs* Im probably going to die alone and my mother will hate me because I wont have grandkids *cough*

If you've gotten this far, you have probably realized that I have no luck in love. At all.

I have been single for three years, it fucking sucks. Im fucking upset.

I throw ALL, and i mean ALL of my energy into my career. Im 21 and im a published author, I work in TV, I have my own entertainment show, and I have a summer job in a pharmescuetical lab. HOW MANY TWENTY ONE YEAR OLDS--

IDk I think im just worried that im never going to know love hahahahaha its fine im fine.

Im just exhausted. Ive been at this and building my career for soo long just fighting and fighting and fighting and I feel like ive not gotten anywhere. Not to mention the fact that I lost weight and I still hate my body because of body dysmorphia.

*quirky*

no but fr i actually feel like im so fat which i am which is why no boys like me and the fact that I have trust issues does not help that at all. So im carelessly just letting my love be sucked away by fictional characters and boys who would never blink an eye at me (aka tom holland, harry styles, tom felton, timothee chalamet) etc.

Im tired. Im just so tired. I keep thinking that I need a miracle and I wish for a miracle but my life stresses are so taxing im starting to lose hope in the fact that I will ever breakthrough any glass wall that I have so far set to destroy- and it's just glass.