Life as a Basic White Girl

So

So.
Quarantine.
I never thought this would happen in my lifetime, but at least I'll get to be a part of history. Also, I went to California! It was a whole dream and I'm absolutely in love. I'll explain the details in another post I promise.

For now however, quarantine. My county is on lockdown, which means I can't leave my house. Nobody is allowed to leave. It's sad and ghostly. I can feel myself slowly going crazy, it's like my life is a prison, or that I'm in prison. I've often struggled to fall asleep at night because I can't stop contemplating EVERYTHING.
My love life? Hopeless.
My future? Dead.
I went on a date with a guy who I thought was going to be perfect, but it turns out that if he was a food, he'd be a rice cake.
I think I'm just too much to handle. Too outgoing, too annoying, too loving, and it saddens me. I feel like I'm not normal. I mean, what's wrong with me?
I just wish I could meet a guy who could match my loveable (sometimes) cuddly, unmanageable (sometimes) crackhead energy.

I miss my friends.
I miss college.
I miss my job.

Oh my god.
This means I'm a senior now.
Where has the time gone?