Girl Meets Wolf

Chapter 17

Axel

I awoke with a start. The she-wolf's eyes still wide open looking back at me. I reached up and felt my own eyes, they were still puffy from last night. I got up and instantly fell back down. Pain soared throughout my leg. I looked down to see that my leg was still very much so broken. The bone however wasn't jutting out like last night. It was back within my body, just not fused together with its other half like it should have been. How the hell am I supposed to get out here like this?

I looked up to see how far I had to climb to get out of here. It was at least a 10 foot climb, and there was no way I was making it up there without both my legs. I reached down looking for my phone and that's when I remembered that I was stark naked. My phone was back at the lockers. Great!

I laid back down on top of the corpses trying to think of a way out. The smell making me nauseous with every breath. I gazed around at my green and muddy surroundings. The trees covered most of the area giving some relief from the hot florida sun. I heard a mosquito flying close to my ear. I swatted it, only for more bugs to start emerging. From flies to worms and mosquitos they all came out to play. Looking for their next meal. I swatted bugs for almost an hour. No plan of getting out of here was came to my mind. The only thing I knew for sure was that I wasn't getting out of here until my leg healed itself more.

I layed back for what felt like hours, letting go and getting stung by the winged beast. When I heard boots crunching towards the top of the ditch.

"The smell is coming from here Jake," one manly voice said. Another man added his own special touch and started to make gagging noises loud enough to wake the dead.

My mind started to race for ideas on how to get out of here. What if this was one of The Doctor's people coming to finish job. The fear started to take over, and my heart clenched in anxiety. They all had to have known by now that an uninvited wolf had come and seen their Beta's face. A person like that couldn't be left alive.

I shut my eyes tightly, resuming my game of possum. My cowardice sickened my wolf. His emotions barrelled into me. It was almost as if he was saying, "Are you an Alpha or an Omega?"

Truth be told, I didn't know either. I was supposed to be this hard, ruthless, bad-ass alpha but here I was laying on a bed of dead people. I was trained better than this, but the fear of death was palpable in my mind. It froze all my good intentions and created this. A man with no honor.

I thought I was prepared. That I had done everything necessary to be the best.

I've tried to be the icy, hard Alpha I was meant to be. I had even cut off all of my human friends because I knew it would only lead to loss. But that's just not me.

For a while I just sat there. Basking in the rolling waves of guilt, shame, and disgust coming in from my wolf.

Deep down inside, I knew, I would never be that type of Alpha.

I tried to be that man yes, but it just wasn't me. I wasn't built to be a cold and distant Alpha. I wasn't built to be alone. I was chasing an image that had been long revered in the pack community, trying to live up to everyone's standards. But I was losing myself in the process. I was not that person. I mean look what's happened when I tried to be that person, I lost my friends and became indecisive and I even tried to push my mate away.

The epiphany sent an electric current up my spine. I'm not the hard Alpha, that I've always wanted to be. But, maybe that's okay too. I have fears, I have doubts, and I have issues, but I will be okay. My wolf tried to make sense of what I was trying to get at, but it was difficult for him.