Luke
I was laying down on my bed, staring at the ceiling. Calum sat cross-legged at the edge of my bed. The TV was blaring some Netflix movie I had no idea what it was. Calum had put it on.
"Calum, what the fuck is this?" He looked back at me.
"The Little Prince."
"That a kid's movie or something?"
"Why don't you just watch and find out?" I sigh. It's eleven in the morning and all I could think about was where the fuck Alice was. I shouldn't have said anything to her, I should've just kept my feelings to myself. Why did I feel the need to confess my love for her?
I shouldn't have bothered her at all. She didn't wanna talk about her self harm, so why did I continue to push it?
"Calum, why am I the way that I am?" He looks over at me, raising an eyebrow.
"What do you mean? You're fine the way you are." I frown, pausing the movie.
"I scared her away," Calum frowns at me, knowing the context. I filled him in on the full story when Alice left, leaving out the part about her self harm. That was personal. "I shouldn't have said a thing."
"You haven't done anything wrong. You told her how you felt. If she doesn't want to be your friend after that then that's her damn fault." I nod, he was right. If she was going to end a seven year friendship over my feelings for her then that's on her, and it shouldn't bother me so much but it did.
"You're right," I sigh. "I just hate the fact that I could have made things so awkward between us." Calum moves beside me, laying back on the bed. He looks over to me and shakes his head.
"Can't blame yourself over something you can't control," As much as I wanted to believe him, I still felt terrible and I hated it. "Do you know if she's still with Ashton?" The thought made me sick. I didn't want to think about Allie with Ashton. He's a complete dickhead and she hasn't known him long enough to realize that. If only she knew.
"No, but my guess is she is. She hates her mum and she isn't here, she'd have nowhere else to go," He nods, looking sympathetic but I didn't want his sympathy, this wasn't his problem to worry about. "She hasn't been answering my texts or calls at all." Being ignored by Allie is probably the worst feeling I've ever felt. I was constantly around her, always talking to her and now that I wasn't, I felt a deep void, like something in my life was missing.
She was missing.
"I know this is the last thing on your mind but maybe we could give Ashton a call?" I almost laugh.
"No way."
"Listen, if you love her and are worried about her your best bet is to call Ash and see if she's still there," I was stubborn. I hate Ashton, and the last thing I wanted was for him to pick up with a sarcastic remark. "Just a thought."
"Fine." I hesitantly get up to grab my phone. Calum watches me as I grab it, unlocking it and scrolling down to Ashton's old contact. In hopes that he still had the same number, I hit call and hold it to my ear, waiting for him to pick up.
It rang for a long time, I almost hung up until I heard the line stop ringing.
"What?" Ashton spoke clear as day.
"Is Allie with you?"
"Not that it's any of your business, but yeah." I roll my eyes.
"I just called to see if she's okay, I haven't heard from her all night."
"Look, Luke. She's fine. She's with me and not you, so get the fuck over it," Hearing his voice made me want to punch him. "I know you love her, Luke. It's sad. Get over it."
"Fuck off, I only called to see if she's alright, I know that she doesn't love me back and that's fine." Ashton laughs.
"Yeah, whatever."
"Can I talk to her?"
"She doesn't want to fucking talk to you. She's ignored your messages for a reason, Luke." Speaking to him made me angrier by the second.
"I don't care just put her on-" Before I can finish my sentence the line goes dead. I groan, frustrated and Calum looks over at me.
"What? What's wrong?" I grab my jacket and throw it on.
"We're going for a ride."
* * *
It only takes us fifteen minutes to get to his house. I park the car and pull out my key. Calum looks at me, frowning.
"Are you sure this is a good idea?"
"No." I get out. I didn't really care if this was a bad idea. I wanted her to stop ignoring me and talk to me. I missed her already and it's only been twelve hours.
Calum hurries behind me.
"Luke, I don't know. Think about this, I don't think this will make her wanna talk to you more. Maybe she really doesn't want to talk to you." I ignore him, continuing forward and walking up Ashton's front steps. I knock on his door as Calum stands beside me, giving me a worried look.
"I have to." I hated myself for being this way but this is the only way she'll talk to me. She can't ignore me forever.
It takes a bit but Ashton finally opens his door. When he sees me he gives me a look of disgust.
"Why am I not surprised?" I go to move past him.
"Where is she?"
"You can't just fucking walk into my house uninvited, Luke." He snaps and I look at him.
"I know you, Ashton. Fuck you. You aren't as kind and sweet as you make her think and I'm not about to let you hurt her." He rolls his eyes.
"Boohoo Luke, it isn't my fault that you can't handle a joke."
"A fucking joke! You and your fucking friends bullied me for years. A joke? Pushing me around and cornering me at school is a joke? Sharing my personal life with the entire fucking school is a joke? For what? Because I dated someone that you fucking couldn't get?" I raise my voice and shake my head. "Fuck this I didn't come here to take a trip down memory lane." Ashton rolls his eyes and I head up the stairs.
"Luke," Calum follows behind me. "We should leave."
"No, I need to talk to her." I look through the rooms, until finally, I get to Ashton's room and throw the door open.
Alice is laying on the bed on her phone.
The blanket is thrown off of her and she's only in her bra and panties. This really shouldn't surprise me but it does and I feel that same pain in my chest that I did when she left. She looks up from her phone and raises her eyebrows.
"Luke?"
"Hey..."
"What are you doing here?" I bite my lip and shake my head.
"I honestly don't fucking know what I'm doing here." She frowns at me.
"Luke, I'm sorry I left like that. I was overwhelmed and I had plans-" She was so beautiful, her body was perfect. It just fucking sucked that it wasn't for me.
"It's fine," I cut her off. She frowns. "I'm leaving anyways." Ashton finally stands in the doorway.
"Yes, leave." I roll my eyes at him and brush past. Calum follows behind again and sighs.
"I told you it wasn't a good idea, man." I ignore Calum as we make it outside. My phone goes off in my pocket and I look to see who it is.
Sierra: Hey, wanna hang out at my place? I'm bored and need help studying. Huge pre-calc test tomorrow.
At first I hesitate, before realizing that I can't hold onto my feelings for Allie. She clearly was busy with someone else. Plus, Sierra seemed like a pretty nice girl. I reply back.
Me: I'll be there in ten minutes :)
