Euphoria || Luke Hemmings [on hold]

Chapter 10

I woke up to someone gently shaking my arm.

"Mave," Luke quietly spoke, I tried swatting away his face as I tried to snuggle back into his chest.

"No." I mumbled.

A slight laugh escaped his mouth.

About 10 minutes later, I felt a hand reaching under my arms as he lifted me to my feet. My hair was all over the place and I looked like a wreck. Luke still looked practically perfect and I didn't understand why. His black hoodie hanging off his back, his hair perfectly messy. He still looked hot.

"Time to go." Was all he said.

I sighed. The train came to a holt and we began our way outside. Luke grabbed my hand, leading me out the train and down the stairs, looking for the nearest of familiar cabs. We were in a small town near the venue, I think I went there for dinner with Callie once. It would only take us a short time to get back. I wish I could just stay with Luke forever and walk around aimlessly, learning stupid facts about him. Get to know him even more. I wanted endless time with him. He was so easy to be around. I could talk to him without the normal insecurites holding me back.

It was strange. A good strange though. I just didn't want this time to end. We spotted an empty cab, and we both got into the back seat me sliding in before him. He always would let me get in first. I thought it was sweet. Our fingers were still both intertwined with one another. Not to be weird or anything, but I loved his hands. They were gentle and soft and whenever his fingers touched me I felt safe and my heart melted. His subtle touches to my face or my waist would drive me insane. They weren't too soft because of all the guitar playing but they were soft enough to drive me crazy. It's weird but our fingers locked together made my entire body tingle. His presence was just magical.

All this would soon be over, as soon as we got back.

We drove through the small town, in silence with the music softly setting a mood in the background. Every so often I would feel his hand squeeze mine, letting me everything was going to be ok. My head rested on his chest while he looked out the window.

While we were at a red light, I tilted my head up and took a look at his face as he stared out the window. His eyes were tired, as so were mine, but he still looked beautiful. The sparkle in his eyes and his crisp jawline. I could tell he was thinking about what lied ahead. He was also humming a tune, which I didn't recongnize.

But in all honestly I don't even know what lies ahead. We only just met each other, but it feels like I've known him for forever. All I wanted to be was just alone for a little while. Being with him was the most fun I think I've ever had. It seems as if it was a dream or a fairytale. This definetly seemed like a fairytale. When the popular boy meets the loner girl and they take an adventure. Too bad this isn't a fairytale. Too bad things won't end in a happily ever after. This is real. He is real. This is real life. It's all too hard to believe though. I took one last look at his face, and then smiled to myself. Even if it was only for a little while, it's been the most I've ever felt alive.

The creme walls of the venue brought me back into reality. We were here. I felt Luke's lip's attach to my head as the car stopped. I gave one glance look to Luke as I sat up, ready to exit the car. Our eyes exchanged a look I can't even explain. It was filled with care, anxiousness, and reassurement.

The first thing I heard when we walked into the venue was a man's voice yelling Luke's name. It was lecture time.

The man came out from one of the hallways with Jill in line and began yelling at Luke.

Luke grabbed my wrist and pulled me back, so now he was standing protectively in front of me.

Questions came flying out of his mouth, "Where were you?", "Why did you leave?", "Why were you with her?"

I have to admit the last one stung a little bit I knew I looked like a mess right now, but still. I have feelings.

"You didn't tell anyone you left with some girl, Luke she could have been crazy! You could have been killed. The possibilites are endless. The boys have been trying to reach you, and we were going to call the police! Luckily Cal noticed your little friend was also missing."

He talked as if I wasn't even there.

Luke tried to speak, "But she isn't-" but he got cut off.

He's right though, I am crazy.

"You never leave without your phone. You never not telling anyone where you're going! You don't just dissapear!"

Luke kept trying to interject, but soon gave up thinking it was no use. He was probably right.

"The fact that you dissapear with a random girl for an entire night! Why? She's crazy. She's a pathetic girl trying to use you, Luke. Do you see her? She isn't good for you."

I was cowardly hinding behind Luke. I couldn't face Jill. I could tell I was going to be fired. I kept just focusing on Luke's hand gripping mine. I could tell both of our hearts were racing. Luke was facing the wrath of his manager as I tried to stay as calm and collected as I could be.

One word just kept repeating in my head though, pathetic.

His next exclaimation suprised me, 

 "You can't go running out with random girls all the time in the middle of the night! Remember that girl in Miami? You had no problem running off with her didn't you! This has happened too much!"

Oh.  So he's done this before? Tried to make me feel special or something? I couldn't focus on any of the words coming out of his mouth. He was talking at a mile a minute.

After being lectured even more, Luke's manager stomped off in another direction letting the boys know that he was back.

It was my turn to face Jill, but to my surpise she had left. I didn't even notice her leave. She probably decided she wasn't going to get a word in anyway with all the words coming out of Luke's managers mouth. The first thing Luke did was turn around and hug me.

A sudden urge of disgust came over me as I remembered something. I felt like crying. I rudley pushed his body away from mine. The look of confusion on his face hurt my heart. But my mind was filled with anger instead of sympathy.

"So you've done this with other girls?" I asked in a barley audible voice.

"You noticed that part?" he spoke softly.

"You think I would have missed it? It was pretty evident. Do you just do this everywhere you go? Fuck with any girls feelings you can. Make them feel special? Like they're worth something? Am I just another charity case?"

He didn't speak.

'Well you know what Maybe I am pathetic because I let you make me think I was worth something."

I didn't think twice before I spun around and walked right to the door but right before I left I turned around,

"And to think that I actually started to like you Luke."

I left feeling completely disgusted with Luke. Only one more day and he was out of my life forever.

Just like it should be.

-

oh snap

sorry it's been like foreverrrr

half of this doesn't even make sense but basically

Luke has done this sort of before

Mavery feels dumb

ya