[No proofread, could contain some mistakes]
„Cwome on Y/N! Dwink something!" Jennie said as she gave me the glass of soju but I refused.
„I'm sorry but I can't, somebody has to drive all of you home." I said chuckling but Jennie just shook her head.
„We're gwoing to get a twaxi! Dwink babe!" Rosé said, obviously drunk.
She stared at me with her cute big eyes making my heart to skip a beat. She wouldn't just stop staring at me so I gave in and took the glass of soju and chugged it down hearing the girls clap into their hands.
I immediately felt the effect of the alcohol because I was a bad drinker and my body got hot quickly making me sweat a little bit. I suddenly got startled when Chaeyoung cupped my cheeks forcing me to look into her pretty eyes. Our faces only a few inches away and I could feel her hot breath on my face. I swear I'm so lucky that I have her as my girlfriend for almost 2 years now. She connected our lips and I immediately felt the butterflies flying around in my stomach.
„I love you so much." Rosé said as she pulled back with her hands still on my cheeks while staring into my eyes.
„I love you too princess."
The adrenaline rushing through my body as I watched her standing up from the table brushing off the invisible dust. She's just perfect.
„I'll quickly go to the toilet." She said and wanted to walk away but got stopped by Lisa and Jisoo.
„Wait! We want to go as well." They said together making me raise my eyebrow.
All of them went to the toilet leaving Jennie and me alone at the table of the bar we are in right now.
„Wanna go to the bar and drink some more alcohol?" Jennie asked while standing up.
I nodded and just followed her. We sat down onto these high chairs in front of the bar desk and the barkeeper looked at the both of us but instead of asking what we want he just nodded. He made two drinks and placed them in front of us making me confused.
„I'm here a lot so he knows which drinks I like." Jennie said when she saw my confused face and I just made an o-face.
Well.... yeah she's here a lot.
„Cheers!" We both said and drank the green drink.
I coughed as it went down my throat. Damn.... this burns, I felt like all of my organs are burning down. The hot feeling got more and more and I felt my sight getting blurry.
„What dwink is thwis?" I asked and I immediately realized that I was drunk.
I got drunk by just this one small drink?
I looked around but Jennie was gone suddenly.
„Hey, babe." I heard a girlish voice saying next to me and I turned to where it came from.
My sight was still so blurry that I couldn't see anything.
„Oh, hwey Rosie." I said as I stood up and walked towards her, almost tripping over my own feet.
I felt her lips on mine but something was off but I didn't care, I just wanted to kiss my girlfriend. The kiss suddenly got pretty deep and hot, I grabbed her thigh and wrapped one leg around my waist while she pulled onto my hair a little bit while putting her tongue into my mouth.
„Y/N.... wh-what are you doing?" I heard somebody say next to me and suddenly the whole hot feeling inside my body was gone.
I looked to my right and blinked a few times so I could see normally again. It wasn't blurry anymore at all and looked into the girls face.
„R-Rosé?" I said shocked as I saw tears rolling down her face while she was shaking.
I looked to the person who's leg was wrapped around my waist and gasped.
„Jennie.... wh-what ar-"
A sharp pain on my cheeks interrupted me and I pushed Jennie away from me as I looked to the person who slapped me. Rosé was shaking so much while she covered her face with her hands.
„I-I thought y-you l-love me." She managed to say between her sobs as I felt my own tears rolling down my face.
„Rosé, I-I thought that was you, please you... you have to believe me!" I said as I walked towards her so I could hug her but she just walked backwards.
„GO AWAY! I HATE YOU!" She screamed as she ran out of the bar leaving me alone.
Jennie was gone suddenly as well and now there was nothing but pain inside my body. I fell onto my knees while sobbing my heart out, my tears falling onto the floor making me cry out even more.
How could I mess up this bad?
~ 6 months later ~
I was sitting on a swing slowly swinging a little bit while thinking about all these things that happened 6 months ago. Chaeyoung still didn't forgive me.... well, she just didn't want to listen to me. She ignored all my calls and messages and everytime I saw her somewhere she immediately went another way, ignoring me.
The last few months were the worst months for me that I ever experienced in my life. I didn't leave my flat anymore and didn't talk to anyone. I just couldn't get over her even after all these months. I just hope I can talk to her so I could explain everything to he-
„Hurry!" I heard somebody say making me look up.
I gasped when I saw her standing right in front of me with her back facing me. I stood up and wanted to tap onto her shoulder but hesitated when I saw some guy walking closer to her, wrapping his arm around her waist. He stared at me with an aggressive stare and I felt the pain inside my body again.
„Fuck off pervert, stop undressing my girl with your eyes." He scoffed at me and I couldn't say anything back to him.
Rosé turned around and just smiled at me. It wasn't her cute smile... It was like she had fun seeing me this hurt.
„Do you know him babe?" That guy next to her asked and I looked to her with hope in my eyes.
„No, I have no idea who he is." She said making tears to roll down my cheeks.
„No! Rosé, you can't do th-"
The guy slapped my hands away that were reaching for her hands and looked at me angrily.
„I SAID HANDS OFF!"
„FUCK OFF IDIOT AND LEAVE ME ALONE SO I COULD TALK TO MY GIRLFRIEND!" I screamed at him with all the anger showing in my face.
His fist suddenly hit me with all his force making me turn around once and falling onto the ground as I heard Rosé laugh.
„Thats what you get for cheating on me." She said and kissed that guy causing my heart to stop beating.
They walked away leaving me alone on the ground of this playground and I just chuckled.
I lifted my arm into the air, so I could feel the gravity pulling it down again while looking into the sky.
„I guess I really messed up." I said chuckling.
My chuckles slowly turning into sobs while more and more tears started falling down. I kept crying like this until it started to get dark and I finally fell asleep on the playground not caring about freezing to death.
'Is this life even worth living now?'
A/N: Badly written, I know I know. I guess I'll just stop writing stories if this goes on like this kdkdkjdkfkfn
