Lams Fluff [In Progress]

Recovery

((A/N Sept 28th It's my birthday UwU I'm 14. One more year closer to my inevitable death. So much to celebrate for! My wasted childhood, my innocence being destroyed, the death of family members, and lots of other depressing things)))

Alex POV

Alex was soon distracted from His John by a whole flood of people streaming through the door. Angelica and Lafayette were screaming happily, James was grinning as he followed in behind Jefferson, who looked mildly pleased that he wasn't dead. Eliza was crying, and a beaming Peggy was patting her back. Hercules was yelling and running around shaking the rest of the group's shoulders until Laf got him to stop. Charles Lee came in shortly after, and revealed a chiwawa stowed inside of his giant mom-bag that he snuck into the hospital. Aaron Burr walked in with flowers to put on his counter. Theodosia and Maria run in, arms stretched wide, screeching gleefuly, and they almost pick Alex up when the hug him.
"Excuse me!" a shout arose through the crowd, revealing the nice nurse who got everyone in here. She smiled softly, looking truly happy that Alex was alive. Huh. That's weird. "As wonderful as this looks, Alexander seems to be needing immediate medical attention, seeing as he's standing, and he chose to rip out his IV drip." She gave a "you-can't-get-past-me" look, and Alex got the message and obediently sat back in the bed, glad that he had an excuse to sit down, feeling very lightheaded now that the excitement was over. She walked over and got blood from him, then reconnected the IV. She turned around and said,
"There can only be three people in here at a time, so I suggest you figure out who's going in first." John imediatly grabbed Alex's hand and almost shouted,
"I'm not leaving him. So there's two more people." Herc pushed his way forward, holding onto Lafayette's hand. "Obviously us two. That would make the most sense." The rest of the group nodded, understanding. They slowly filed out, casting grins and waves at Alexander before leaving to wait their turn. Alexander felt a sudden rush of appreciation for how many friends he had made, and how much they cared for him. John sat back in the chair, holding urgently onto Alexander's hand, squeezing it reassuringly. Alex gave a tired grin first at John, then at Hercules and Lafayette, who were standing at the side of his bed, holding onto each other. Alex looked down at his ace-bandaged-wrapped hand and said softly, "I need to tell you guys something." John nodded, and said, "Anything, Alexander, you can tell us what happened whenever you feel ready."
"That's not what I meant." Alexander thought.
"No." Alexander said tiredly. "I mean... when I was unconscious. When I was getting moved to the hospital. Did they restart my heart in the ambulance?" John's worried eyes almost were drilling holes into the side of Alexander's face.
"Yes" He said, "Why do you ask?" Alex leaned back, eyes closed.
Does this mean I was supposed to die?
"When I died, " He started, then faltered. "When I was dead for that little while, everything changed. It turned gray, and then it was all white and glowing. I could... I could move without pain. I... John, I saw my mother." Alex said urgently, as he turned to look at John.
"Oh, Lexi." John said sympathetically. Alex continued on anxiously.
"She said that... she said that she was proud of me. That she loved me. She said that she knew that we'd find each other. She... she asked if there was anyone anyone in my life, and I realized that I had never thought for a second that I had left Earth. I thought about you, John, and then all my friends, and then she realized that I needed to leave, and she... she let me go." We sat in silence for the rest of our time.

- le next day-

Sept 30th Hi this'll be just like a canon shindig because it's one in the morning and also because gay.

John POV

John spends all of his free time out of classes with Lexi. The kind nurse brings another meal when it's time for Lexi's supper. He does all his homework in the hospital room. He doesn't get to sleep there, bit stays as long as he can. One day, he was cuddling with alexander in his bed, almost on top of him, when Lexi got one of his moments where he got really sad and was questioning the meaning of life and stuff. John always did his best to distract him, so he pecked Lexi in the mouth and whispered, "you are so fucking adorable." And Lexi, like, without a moment's hesitation, like it just slipped out said, " You're adorably fuckable."
"wAT"
"who said what???" Lexi said, pretending that he didn't just say that, cheeks red. John turned his chin and looked at him, shifting now so he was on top of Alex. "What did you mean by that, Lexi?" Alex shook his head, embarrassment and sadness etched in his face. "Nothing." He said. "I just, really, really like you and I want to get the hell out if this place." John cocked his head. "As in the hospital?"
"That too."
"Oh, Lexi."
"You used." He said, taking a sharp breath. "To call me Alexander."

I ate this today

And came to the conclusion I had a crush on the following characters. Not people, characters.

Him. Virgil Sanders.

Him. Draco Malfoy.

And her. Because Peggy, bitch.

I could rattle off the rest of the Hamilton cast and other musical people plus Newt Scamander but I dont have the time for all of that. I can't even say time without thinking of Hamilton. And now whenever I type a capital h it goes to Hamilton automatically.