Human // c.d

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"I-" I said, "I think we should wait."

"We can wait." He said, plopping himself beside me instead of on top of me.

It's just, I've never did this before, and I think it'd be better it we waited..

"I'm gonna wait for you." He smiled, kissing my lips.

"I expected you to get mad." I admitted to him.

"Mad because you don't want to have sex with me?" He propped himself up onto his elbows.

"It's not that I don't want to.." I covered my face, "I'm just scared, I just want to wait longer."

"I know I know." He whispered, smiling at me. "Thats perfectly okay with me." He looked down at me.

"Why would you think that?" He asked,

"Think what?"

"That I'd get mad.." He said, and it took me a minute to reply.

"Well, my mom use to date this man. He was always so rude. So demanding. Whenever my mom wouldn't kiss him when he wanted her to, he'd get mad. Really mad. And the thing is, I never said or did anything about it. He'd hit her right in front of me, and I would just sit there.."

"How old were you?" He laid on his stomach, his eyes in contact with mine.

"I was eleven." I could have did something at the age of eleven, but I didn't. I watched my mother get beaten every night, thinking it was her fault that she was getting hit.

"That was a long time ago, and it's not your fault anyways." He kissed my forehead, wrapping his arms around me. He knew how to make me feel better.

"I should go check on Jake." I grabbed my shirt from the floor, pulling it over my head. There was no need to put my underwear back on, considering I was just going to check up on him.

I walked down the hallways, peeking my head into the living room.

There he laid asleep, not even a cover wrapped around him.

I grabbed the furry cover on the other couch, unfolding it. I covered him up, trying not to wake him.
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"I'm leaving in a few days." He half whispered, running his fingers through my pushed back hair.

I didn't respond, and I wasn't planning on it either. I rather not think about not seeing him anymore after two days. This small romance thing we have going on will eventually end, and I'll go back to the boring life of babysitting. But the thing is, I was happy before he came, or at least I thought I was. But whenever he came unexpectedly into my life, I was a different kind of happy, happier than I've been in a while. And now that he's going to leave, the old happy life I was to think was great, will no longer have the same effect on me. Without him around, kissing me every five seconds, or shoving me into a janitors closet every now and then, it'll be boring. His affection, I've come to really love it..

I pulled the covers up to my chest, turning to my side to face him.

"Where are you going?" I gave in, but talking about it wasn't my favorite thing. I wish he could just stay here with me.

"Everywhere, I travel to see my fans." He stated. "I'm living my dream, this is all I've ever wanted."

"What? Being famous?" I asked. That's everyone's dream, well at least most.

"Having you." He smiled.

"Having me?" I chuckled, "I'm just a girl."

"You're my girl." He emphasized me, pulling me closer to him.

"I love you, you cheesy boy." I said, covering my mouth. I just said that I loved him, it's too soon. Way too soon.

He snuggled himself onto me, and I figured he just didn't hear me.

Please say he just didn't hear me.