Human // c.d

20

"Good Morning Jessi and..." Diane slurred.

"This is Cameron." I smiled half blushing, I sat down at the kitchen table, ready to eat the breakfast she'd been making for who knows how long. Cameron later sat by me after fixing him a glass of water. His hair was awful, and i'm almost positive that I've never seen it that way. His eyes were half open, due to waking up literally five minutes ago. He's not much of a morning person.

"Babe." He laid his head onto my shoulder, his out of control hair in my face. I pushed it back, watching him close his eyes as I did it. I played with his hair for the longest, and im almost positive that he's asleep by now. Which I dont see how, I could fall alseep that way. I'd need a bed or even a pillow.

Jack Gilinsky could be seen from the stairs, and his hair was just as messy as Camerons, maybe even worse.

"Good morning" He smiled to Diane, making his way towards the empty table that only held Cam and I.

I nodded at him, I didn't want to speak, knowing it would only wake Cameron.

The smell of breakfast was making me weak, Diane was always a slow cooker. Or maybe its due to having to cook for ten extra people. Who knows.

Looking at Cameron, I'd realized his eyes were open, and staring towards the stairs. Shawn and Hayes were both wide awake, at nine o'clock in the morning. They sat directly in front of me, pulling out their phones.

"Shawn, sing." Jack Gilinsky groaned from across the table. Shawn's cheeks turned red, he shook his head no.

"I can't, I dont sing good at this time of the day." He said, and watching Gilinsky's expression, I could tell it was a lie.

"Shawn, you use to sing for us every morning."  Cameron lifted his head from my shoulder and into the palms of his hands. He reached down under the table, searching for my hand. I grabbed it, parting my fingers in with his. The feeling of him holding my hand made me feel complete I guess. It's like my hand is a puzzle, and his are the rest of the peices.

He tightened his grip a few times, running his thumb over mine. I tried not to blush, knowing we were just holding hands. We have definetely done more than this. Heck, we almost had sex last night for goodness sakes.

"When did I go to sleep?" Cameron eyed me, a crooked smile slipped from his lips.

I shrugged my shoulders, and from surprise, his lips connected with mine for a good second before he pulled away. I was honestly shocked, knowing he would actually kiss me in front of the boys made me smile. Knowing he's not ashamed of me is all i could ask for.

Jack Gilinsky shook his head, a grin on his face. "You two are something else."

"Hey, I think the fans have caught on to whats going on between you two.." Hayes mumbled, but I heard.

"What do you mean?" I asked, propping my elbows up onto the table. Cameron's hand oddly tightened onto mind, my eyes were still placed on Hayes.

"Hayes." Jack glared at him. Is there something that I don't know about?

Cameron looked away, his hand still squeezing onto mine. Everyone's eyes were weak, and not one of them were looking at me. I could say i was curious, but honestly I was more afraid.

"Is there something you guys aren't telling me?" I quietly asked, pulling my hand away from Cameron's. He looked at me, and the way his bottom lip was trembling, I could tell that he was trying to tell me something. Why won't anyone tell me whats going on? It couldn'tpossibly be that bad..

"Whenever we talk to someone, girl wise, the fans go a little overboard with it.."  Shawn softly said.

"A little? More like-" Hayes began before every cussed at him.

Diane was in the kitchen, worry struck her face, even she somehow knew what was going on..

"Tell me. Now." For the first time, I gave Cameron the death glare, and I wasn't use to being mean to him, considering he is nothing but nice to me. I regretted the way I glared at him right when I did, but I had to know what exactly was going on.

"The fans know about you." He stood up, his black knee length shorts clung to his legs, "They know about us, and- and" He turned away rubbing the back of his head. He sighed, "They say rude things about you, but listen to me." I was already mad, he was inches away from me, grabbing my hand tightly into his.

"It doesn't matter what they say okay? They're just saying that to piss you off. They say that stuff to hurt you. They don't mean it. They don't even know you." He tried to brighten this dark situation that I clearly knew nothing about. I mean, I obviously knew the girls from the hotel a few days ago weren't fond of me, but I didn't know i was world wide.

"I wanna know what they say about me." I gasped, pulling my hand once again away from him.

"No." He stated, shaking his hand. My anger rose, and I walked myself away from him. I noticed Diane had breakfast ready and set out onto the counter, but honestly, Iost my appetite ten minutes ago.

"Wait, please." Cameron pleaded, following me upstairs. I ignored him on the search for my personal room, it took me only five seconds to reach my destination, twisting the door knob and practically running to my bed. I lightly sobbed into my pillow, knowing good and well Cameron was in the room.

What has he done to me..

"Don't do this to me." His voice was dark, deep even. I clutched my fingers onto the pillow, gasping for air.

"You did this to me." I yelled into the pillow. "You knew once you talked to me that this would happen. You're fans would hate on me. There's no telling what they've said about me." I wasn't crying, but I wasnt going to show my face to him either.

"What do they say?" I plainly ask, knowing I would have to fight to get the answer. Good thing it was dark in the room. Cameron was leaning against the wall near the door whenever I leaned up.

"Well?" I asked. He looked at me for a good second, making his way towards me.

"Why does it matter?" He asked, lying right beside me.

"Because it's about me. I would like to know what people say about me." I stared at him.

"Why? So you can feel bad about yourself? Im trying so damn hard for you to see how beautful you are, and there is no way Im going to let irrelevant fans ruin it." He pushed the hair that was in  my face out of the way.

"I love you. That's all that should matter." He stated.