Human // c.d

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Surprised that he was taking a walk with me in public, but even more surprised that he was telling me things that he has yet to explain.

"I was going to call you, if that counts."

"That doesn't count." My quick reply was straight forward, I'm not scared to come out and tell him things, and that's how it's gonna be.

"I'm sorry." His apology wasn't sappy, and I knew he wasn't trying to fetch for my sympathy. Somehow I knew that he meant it I guess, and I was willing to slowly accept it.

"I thought maybe if I didn't talk to you, I'd eventually get over you. Honestly, I would understand if you hated me for it, but I'm not going to lie. I liked you so much, and I knew that I'd be putting you through so much if I always left you and came back, so I thought ignoring you was the answer." He shook his head, humiliation held in his eyes. He was ashamed of himself, in some ways he should be.

"Nash always asked about you." Cameron laughed, but I didn't know what to respond.

I don't know if I should be happy that Nash actually cares for me, or sad that he made more of an attempt to see me than Cameron did.

"You're not talking, I'm scared." He glanced over at me, it's not that I was ignoring him or mad at what he was saying, I just honestly couldn't find the words.

I'm scared of saying the wrong thing. I just want things to be right.

"So," I gulped the lump down that had formed in the back of my throat, my eyes focused on the ground in front of me instead of him, "You didn't ignore me because you didn't- like me anymore?"

"Ignored you because I loved you too much for my own good. It's scary, actually, how quick I fell in love with you. And I know, I'm a teenager, and know not a thing about love, and that a week isn't long enough to fall for it, but I am. -in love with you."

(So short, I'm sorry!)