Quantum Connections

Final Goodbye III

I looked him dead in the eye, "Are you really asking me that?"

The Doctor looked shocked at the anger in my voice, "Why do make it sound like that? Is it a bad thing?"

"Doctor, I have friends I can't leave here. And even if it is my dream, I could never leave them with no way to contact them." 

"Iris, I understand. I just thought that I would try. You're very smart and very kind. It was selfish of me to just try to whisk you off to some other universe." He pouts. Great, now I feel guilty. A man with two hearts and it seems as if I have broken both. 

"I can't leave Rose and John. They are all I have." I look down, trying to make him feel guilty after the guilt trip he had sent me on.

"Even if they lied to you? You have had dreams of 'John' and Rose in another world and they never told you about it." This got me to stop dead in my tracks. Why had they lied to me? In fact, now that I think about it, no one ever lets me do anything. I've never been involved in things at Torchwood, Rose and John hardly ever hang out after they got married, and I don't really know anyone else. Do the people of this universe just pity me? Or are they trying to protect me? 

"They were doing it to protect... me? Themselves?" I looked down at my hands. All the things I have ever offered to do, they never, never let me help. They know how capable I am yet, they don't trust me. I have known them for almost three years and they haven't opened up to me. I feel my eyes tear up but push it down, if I cry that means they won. 

I look back up and plaster a smile to my face, "Tell me three reasons you want me with you. If they are good enough then I will consider it." My mask may be just a mere smile, but it has always worked wonders on others. 

"If I am alone for too long I become heartless, two hearts yet no remorse." He said with just one finger up. He added another finger, "It would be a chance for you to figure out your dreams and see the multiverse." and another finger, "We could find a way for you to keep in contact with your friends here."

I nod, "I have 10 hours and 19 minutes to think about it." 

The Doctor and I continue to chat and get to know one another. He and I have a lot in common. While we talk I list out the pros and cons of going.

Pro - I would get to live my dream.

Con - Have to leave my friends.

Pro - We can find a way to communicate with my friends.

Con - We might never find a way to get in contact with them.

Pro - I wouldn't have to pay travel fees.

Con - If the Doctor got bored of me I would be alone in another universe.

Pro, con, pro, con, pro. We have 3 hours left and I decide to invite the Smith's over for breakfast. Their shop is closed on Mondays until 11 so we have time. Since it is 6am only John is awake and he answers. 

"What now?" 

"Well, that was a great greeting." My voice is a light joking tone, but deep down this crushed my soul. The words spoken by the Doctor flashed in my head.

"Sorry, it's just that Pete had just hung up. I thought it was him again." I nod my understanding until I remember that he can't see me. 

"Oh, um, it's alright then, I guess. Hey, I was wondering if you and Rose would want to come over? For a final goodbye. You know, since it is the last time you may see your friend from another universe."

John was silent on the other end for a minute, "Yeah, we will be over in an hour."

I nod, "Great, see you then."