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"One, two, three, say cheese Love!"

"Cheese!"

I excitedly came to him wearing my biggest smile as I looked at his photograph. He kissed my cheek as I was busy examining the photo and I just pouted my lips.

Without hesitation, he immediately kissed me and I giggled. I wrapped my arms on his neck and we kissed under a sunny afternoon near the shore. I love this man so much. More than anything that this world has to offer.

"I love you, Nadine. I love you so much."

I wiped the sides of his lips because there was a stain from my lip gloss and he just smiled. I looked at him and stared straightly on his eyes. With my arms still wrapped on his neck and his on my waist, I couldn't stop myself to appreciate once again the beauty of his eyes.

"I love you too, James. So much."

With that, we took some photos together and we enjoyed watching the sunset by the beach. That moment I realized that not all silence can be deafening. Because sometimes, the silence that you'll experience will be such a heart warming feeling to be experienced especially when you're with the person whom you really love the most.

And for my case, that is James.

"Another heartbreaking night, Nadine? If I were you, I will stop looking at those pictures to save my lonely ass from being heartbroken."

I was being drawn back to reality when Mika approached me and tapped my shoulder. I let out a heavy sighd and smiled at her weakly.

"N-no I-I was just arranging our photos here."

"Well, as you say so."

I continue arranging our picture frames when Mika spoke to me again.

"Are you sure you'll be okay if I will go home already? Or do you want me to sleep here tonight?" She asked worriedly.

"Go home Mika. I can handle myself and I am sure Bret is already waiting for you. It's your anniversary right?"

She hugged me and kissed me on my cheek. I smiled at her to give her assurance that I will be fine here, alone. Besides I am used to it already. What's new, right?

"I'll go ahead Nadz. Call me if you need any help okay?"

"Yeah sure. Bye Miks take care!"

With that my best friend already left. Now, I am alone again in this very big house. I roam around my eyes and in every corner of it I can remember something. Those happy moments we had for three years.

I couldn't help but feel the heaviness in my heart and I can feel the tears that is starting to roll down from my eyes. How can everything change so quickly and how can pain took over with happiness in an instant?

I missed him so much. I missed the life that we used to have. I missed us. I missed my husband so fucking much. I missed James.

In the loneliness and the pain that I am carrying, I let it all out again and I cried. Hopelessly waiting for the day that everything will fall into place and everything will go back to how it was used to be.